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yes, brad.. you can hate me for it. :); haha.
for some reason I just hate everything about this journal.
&i was thinking of deleting it all together, but you all know I can't do a thing like that.
So since I'm not over livejournal.. here it is.
&it will be friends only sometimes, sometimes not.
I went home today.
I was so tired, exhausted rather.
I am not depressed, or sad.
Don't get me wrong.
I love my life &everything about it.
I'm just exhausted with school, and I quit too easily.
Duh.
So here I am.
I have given up on LaGuardia, for now.. I think.
Leaving CHS would be too tough.
We all die anyway, so I don't see how what high school we go to makes a difference.
I enjoy [most of my] days at Carmel. I love it here, love.
&I would love to go to LaGuardia more than anything, I could see myself there.
I would have an insentive to get good grades.
I have already realized I'm not getting into Juliard, call me pesamistic, or just realistic.
I have also realized I am not getting into Harvard.
I've also decided going to college until I'm 32 might not be the best thing.
So, i've decided to hold off on deciding.
I have time.
time, is the most beautiful word to ever be created.
It's also the strongest.
&we are so obliviously lucky to have it.
&you know you are not a soilder, but you still fight the war.