Holiday Spirit...or Lack Thereof
There was a parade in town, and the research center has a wagon/float in it every year. We (Smitty and I) helped decorate and rode in it again this year. We were even told that we were fun to watch because we kept waving to everyone and saying "Merry Christmas" and "Happy Holidays", but it's like I left it when the parade was over. We finally got a tree last week...and that's all the decorating we've done. I don't expect to do more, since I just put the boxes with other decoration away. I haven't gotten around to sending cards, and at this late date I don't expect to. I pulled out cards from last year and only had about a half-dozen. I sent out many more than that, and while I don't expect everyone to respond, I did hope to keep in touch (and have others keep in touch as well) a little better than that.
Maybe I'm tired of seeing Christmas stuff, since it's been out and about since September. Maybe it's just other things in life weighing me down right now. I have at least been given a slightly hopeful piece of news. The weight I've managed to acquire these last few months (something else to weigh on my mind...pun intended) may very well be due to the drug regime I was on. Given that nearly all the issues I was being drugged for seem to have either resolved or ended up being nothing to be alarmed about (obviously good news, though we're still watching a couple issues), maybe that weight will go away in the next few months.
Maybe, maybe, maybe. I don't know. I feel like I'm marking time, looking forward to friends coming in over the holidays (though some faces will be sorely missed), and hoping that next year is better. It could be worse, but I certainly hope not.
Regardless, I hope your holiday season is joyous and grand, and that you get things you never realized you wanted or needed, somehow making your life complete, if just for a moment.
Happy Holidays.