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merry christmas everyone!
today thomas, arjun and julia came over. we watched napolean dynamite and part of the ring and thomas and arjun spent like 10 minutes "testing out" my bed. weird. i know it's early, and everyone will just roll their eyes when i say this but i really do love thomas. he makes me so happy. i honestly have never had something like this with someone before.
last night michelle came over and we watched the OC.
my gut hurts.. not my stomach, my gut. it might be because i'm listening to this song [jewel- foolish games], which has always made me sad. but i don't know.
found this just now, i wrote it quite awhile ago, i quite like it.. i don't care if you don't:
It’s when I’m in my room screaming “I want to go home!” When I’m on the phone with the dial tone. Muscles tense like a murder trial, nails scratching like a cat. You’ll ask me if my dog got at me. Picking at my scabs like it’s my only way to redemption. I will bleed.
We’re living in a world were redemption seems necessary. I apologized for ruining your shirt. I said I was sorry I did it. But I meant to do it anyways. Our motions are deliberate. I pretended to not want to talk to you when my heart was flipping at the sound of your voice. And when we hung up, I cried and cried.
merry christmas bitches. kiss your mommies tonight and make sure you thank them for all the nice things they got you.
youknowyouloveme
today thomas, arjun and julia came over. we watched napolean dynamite and part of the ring and thomas and arjun spent like 10 minutes "testing out" my bed. weird. i know it's early, and everyone will just roll their eyes when i say this but i really do love thomas. he makes me so happy. i honestly have never had something like this with someone before.
last night michelle came over and we watched the OC.
my gut hurts.. not my stomach, my gut. it might be because i'm listening to this song [jewel- foolish games], which has always made me sad. but i don't know.
found this just now, i wrote it quite awhile ago, i quite like it.. i don't care if you don't:
It’s when I’m in my room screaming “I want to go home!” When I’m on the phone with the dial tone. Muscles tense like a murder trial, nails scratching like a cat. You’ll ask me if my dog got at me. Picking at my scabs like it’s my only way to redemption. I will bleed.
We’re living in a world were redemption seems necessary. I apologized for ruining your shirt. I said I was sorry I did it. But I meant to do it anyways. Our motions are deliberate. I pretended to not want to talk to you when my heart was flipping at the sound of your voice. And when we hung up, I cried and cried.
merry christmas bitches. kiss your mommies tonight and make sure you thank them for all the nice things they got you.
youknowyouloveme