And I listen for the whisper of your sweet insanity...

[forlornabsconda]

I lie on the floor, staring at the ceiling. My hands and feet go numb from the cold air surrounding me. I stare at the light, waiting for it to fall down on me. It's not getting any closer. Nothing seems real anymore. It's like a movie with scripts and all. I'm impatient with the light. I stand up and walk to the bathroom. There's a person waiting for me. We stare at each other. After what seems an eternity, I realize who that strange person is. But how can it be? She looks nothing like me. Must be an actress hired for this movie.

I don't know if that makes any sense at all. Reality is so far away now, I don't even know where to begin. I haven't felt this way in so long that now it feels strange.

Ugh, I hate this side of me.