SCARY
i am the girl who will never be ready for a more serious relationship. no kids. no commitment. nothing. i'm going to get old and have to live with my cats. well, dogs really because i hate cats. eventually everything will leave me because i dont want to settle in.
thats the real problem with me. i dont want to settle. the funny thing is, thats the worst of my real problems. but to alot of people here, thats a big problem.
what scares me most is you want to play the soilder in the movies who goes off and has his love at home. you romanticized war. thats why i dont watch movies. and i only read books about real-life. my love for you will falter while you are away. thats how it works. if i cant see/touch/feel it, its like it was never there to me. ats a safeguard.
like i said, no commitment for me. so when you go remember that i love you. and when you come back, remember that whatever happens (if you make this decision) was because im not a big enough person to keep promises. i cant expect you to keep them either. its just better if we both don't.
but every morning i wake up you will still make me smile. and i hope we never get into this what-if situation. because even though im a bitch, i feel like given the chance i could be worse.
forgive me for this.
scout.
thats the real problem with me. i dont want to settle. the funny thing is, thats the worst of my real problems. but to alot of people here, thats a big problem.
what scares me most is you want to play the soilder in the movies who goes off and has his love at home. you romanticized war. thats why i dont watch movies. and i only read books about real-life. my love for you will falter while you are away. thats how it works. if i cant see/touch/feel it, its like it was never there to me. ats a safeguard.
like i said, no commitment for me. so when you go remember that i love you. and when you come back, remember that whatever happens (if you make this decision) was because im not a big enough person to keep promises. i cant expect you to keep them either. its just better if we both don't.
but every morning i wake up you will still make me smile. and i hope we never get into this what-if situation. because even though im a bitch, i feel like given the chance i could be worse.
forgive me for this.
scout.