An update
I haven't known what to update with lately. My head is spinning from the 180 my life has done since David's arrival. Most of my lj reading is done while I'm nursing David, so it's easier to read than update.
Sometimes I am so confused, sometimes I feel like supermom, mostly I am making it up as I go a long. I am doing a job I have very little training for. I am so deeply in love. I feel severely unaccomplished. The only thing I can hope for at the end of the day is that David and I are both still alive. Everything else is gravy. But after 4 months it's getting old. I'm trying to carve out time for both things and myself. Last night I stayed up to 3 am because it was wonderful to just be by myself.
The one thing I haven't figured out is how to work while I am being a mom. I don't know how women do it. Well I do, it's because they have to. I used to be all about work now I am all about being a Mommy. I love it 98% of the time and the other 2% is mostly due to lack of sleep.
Often I can barely think due to the lack of sleep. That's another reason for no updates. I can barely form sentences, let alone thoughts. Steve is a saint for putting up with my lack of memory. I hope things start normalizing soon. Every so often I have a good day. David started NOT sleeping through the night a few weeks ago and my brain has been shit ever since.
It's late I should go to bed.
Sometimes I am so confused, sometimes I feel like supermom, mostly I am making it up as I go a long. I am doing a job I have very little training for. I am so deeply in love. I feel severely unaccomplished. The only thing I can hope for at the end of the day is that David and I are both still alive. Everything else is gravy. But after 4 months it's getting old. I'm trying to carve out time for both things and myself. Last night I stayed up to 3 am because it was wonderful to just be by myself.
The one thing I haven't figured out is how to work while I am being a mom. I don't know how women do it. Well I do, it's because they have to. I used to be all about work now I am all about being a Mommy. I love it 98% of the time and the other 2% is mostly due to lack of sleep.
Often I can barely think due to the lack of sleep. That's another reason for no updates. I can barely form sentences, let alone thoughts. Steve is a saint for putting up with my lack of memory. I hope things start normalizing soon. Every so often I have a good day. David started NOT sleeping through the night a few weeks ago and my brain has been shit ever since.
It's late I should go to bed.