I’m just… I don’t have the words (I’ll try to put my love for this into words anyway, but… watch me fail miserably orz) I LOVED THIS SO MUCH I CAN’T EVEN… I CAN’T ENGLISH PROPERLY RIGHT NOW! It’s true that I haven’t read a lot of stories in this exchange yet, but it’s by far (BY FAR) my favorite and it’d probably still be my favorite if I went ahead and read every single story in this exchange. I can safely say it’s one of the best Sukai stories I have ever read. As a matter of fact it’s one of the best stories I’ve read. Ever. I JUST LOVE IT SO FREAKING MUCH! (We have guests, but here I am, trying to write you the comment this story deserves, but I honestly don’t know how I’m supposed to do that ;____;)
One of the things I loved most was the way you told it. The switching between the present and the flashbacks to their past made this such an experience! The first flashback was actually so adorable! Determined, clingy Jongin and annoyed Joonmyun who gives in anyway. “So teach me now then.” “Don't want to. Now give me the damn ball.” “Pleaaaase, hyung?” “Go away, Jongin. You’re such a pest.” “PLEAAAASE, hyung?” /clutches chest and coos at cute babies
The second one almost broke me; Joonmyun you ASSHOLE IDIOT JERK (I know he was probably hurting as much as Jongin, but I don’t care. Hmph.) (Okay fine. Maybe I do feel bad for him - really bad - but I’m still pissed at him for treating Jongin like that. I get his whole fear of watching his relationship with Jongin die a slow, painful death. Long-distance relationships can be toxic, but still… WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BE THAT CRUEL ;____; /SOBS) “You can either say goodbye or not say it - doesn’t change the fact that I won’t be here tomorrow.” Joonmyun’s voice was unbending, reinforced with threads of steel. /throws stuff at you and Joonmyun But honestly… the way you described Jongin’s confusion and fear and pain was too damn real! My throat was tightening up and I had to swallow several times throughout that scene alone. He ached so badly to have Joonmyun’s arms around his thin, shaking body and to feel Joonmyun’s bony shoulder beneath his chin; but the other boy was keeping his distance. T_____T
And of course Jongdae’s solution for Jongin’s heartbreak is a night out partying and drinking. Of course! LMAO xD (Bless him for his matter-of-fact acceptance of Jongin’s sexuality. BLESS HIM!)
"Okay, that's it. I can't watch this pity party. We're taking you to a club on Saturday night. Who knows? You might even bump into Mr. Heartbreaker there."
"Jongdae, please. Life is not a Korean drama,"
In the end he was right, though. Apparently Jongin’s life actually is a drama. I approve. Give me all the wonderfully clichéd storylines. Amazingly written clichés are a beautiful thing and give me life. (And I hope you’re aware of the fact that cliché doesn’t have a negative connotation for me. I love them. They make me ridiculously happy. Meeting your first love again, with both sides still completely in love with each other… /sighs happily)
I actually loved that club scene a lot. And not just because of the short Selu appearance (although I adored that one A LOT. The music is just an excuse SCREAMING I’M ACTUALLY SCREAMING
I really really REALLY liked the way you handled the ‘meeting again and realizing who the other person is’ scene. You eased them into it (or at least Joonmyun), it wasn’t one staggering realization, but it still had so much impact. I was really impressed by that. "Y'know, I wasn't going to say anything but ... you remind me of this kid I once knew." I was actually holding my breath. GENIUS! Then there’s the tentative, but also natural way the fall back into their conversations with each other. You could see they were both being careful with their words, unsure of how much they could/should reveal, afraid they might say too much or the wrong thing, but there was also this ease between them… it’s so hard to describe, but you made me feel it and it left my chest all achey and heavy with both worry and hope. THIS STORY WAS SUCH AN EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER BUT IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE UGH
"Have you been happy?" "Ah, y'know, I got by." This pretty much killed me. There are so many unsaid things in that little exchange alone. Jongin’s need to know what happened to Joonmyun, to hear why he had left him like that, if he suffered as much as he did. On the one hand he wants him to be happy, but on the other hand there had to be a part of him wishing that Joonmyun was as miserable as him, missing Jongin and cursing himself for leaving him like he did. Then there’s Joonmyun, who did what he thought he had to do to protect himself and his heart, but nevertheless hurting himself in the process. I JUST… ACK! I’M SO NOT OKAY! DAMMIT!
My favorite part of his story was probably the flashback to their first kiss. Everything about that scene was just so tense and lovely and bittersweet (because we all knew what happened after that), but you actually made me feel the electricity in the air. Not just the description of the storm, but the awareness and tension between them. Joonmyun’s struggle of keeping things platonic when he wanted so much more. Needed so much more! >____< I have such a weakness for friendship on the edge of something else, something more, and you wrote that so phenomenally I’m still breathless. That was just such a powerful and amazing scene and… I can’t. (You have no idea how much I am questioning my own writing right now. I’m not usually the type to compare my own work to other people’s stories, but right now I’m… /stares at own stuff and shakes head sadly) Jongin's arm reached around Joonmyun's shoulders as they waited for the hammer to strike. It felt good. The weight on his shoulders felt like it belonged and Joonmyun had to restrain himself from slipping his arm around Jongin's waist. Just kill me now. He turned towards him and all that smooth tawny skin and curved bottom lip was suddenly too close - so close that Joonmyun couldn't breathe. The wind ripped at Jongin's hair, making a few strands fall messily across his forehead; and he wanted nothing more than to push that hair aside and kiss him on the forehead. I will never recover.
That scene of Sukai talking things through (or not talking - /sighs lovely smut was lovely) was so emotional, but at the same time it felt as if things were already settled? I’m having problems finding the right words again, but it felt as if things fell into place the second they saw each other again. Both of them obviously still wanted each other so much, their love was just as strong as seven years ago, so the talking was necessary in a way, but at the same time there was a sense of something (I CAN’T FIND THE DAMN WORD /PULLS HAIR) to it. Like they both knew they would be with each other again and it was just a matter of getting there. Omg, I sound like an idiot, but that’s the feeling you gave me and I can’t describe it any better. I’m sorry.
Also that last flashback of Joonmyun /cries all over you ;_________;
That epilogue had me flailing like an idiot. It was so lovely and emotional and wonderful! Just like this entire story and I have to admit I was actually crying a little bit when both of them sent each other emails again TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE ALL THESE FLUFFY LOVELY SUKAI FEELINGS I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DEAL WITH!!!! And Joonmyun replying to every single one of Jongin’s mails… Nope. Not. Okay. This will never be okay. You have ruined me forever. I will never be the same again. Bye.
And this is it… my very inadequate and dumb comment, but it’s all I could manage and it was heartfelt, so I hope you at least know that I just really loved it. It was simply an incredibly lovely story and I’ll reread it again and again and again in the future.
Oh right! Almost forgot… I also really loved all the side characters: Jongdae, Amber, Tao, (Selu - even though they were extremely SIDEside characters. I’m still hung up on that one scene, sorry not sorry). I just loved everything about this and I feel exhausted but incredibly happy at the same time (and I have no idea how I’m supposed to leave my room and be sociable now… I don’t care, this was /so/ worth it!)
jenniiiiiiiiiii /rolls all over you/ as always, your heartfelt and eloquent comments give me so so much life. It means the world to me that this fic touched your heart bc it touches mine and I just want other people to feel it too. So thank you thank you thank you for feeling it and for understanding how much they mean to each other. Just /crawls into your lap and never leaves/ I love you lots, jenni. For everything. I think you know what that encompasses ;;;;
And yes, all the selu I ever write is always ever and ever for you <333
I don’t have the words (I’ll try to put my love for this into words anyway, but… watch me fail miserably orz)
I LOVED THIS SO MUCH I CAN’T EVEN… I CAN’T ENGLISH PROPERLY RIGHT NOW!
It’s true that I haven’t read a lot of stories in this exchange yet, but it’s by far (BY FAR) my favorite and it’d probably still be my favorite if I went ahead and read every single story in this exchange. I can safely say it’s one of the best Sukai stories I have ever read. As a matter of fact it’s one of the best stories I’ve read. Ever.
I JUST LOVE IT SO FREAKING MUCH! (We have guests, but here I am, trying to write you the comment this story deserves, but I honestly don’t know how I’m supposed to do that ;____;)
One of the things I loved most was the way you told it. The switching between the present and the flashbacks to their past made this such an experience!
The first flashback was actually so adorable! Determined, clingy Jongin and annoyed Joonmyun who gives in anyway.
“So teach me now then.”
“Don't want to. Now give me the damn ball.”
“Pleaaaase, hyung?”
“Go away, Jongin. You’re such a pest.”
“PLEAAAASE, hyung?”
/clutches chest and coos at cute babies
The second one almost broke me; Joonmyun you ASSHOLE IDIOT JERK (I know he was probably hurting as much as Jongin, but I don’t care. Hmph.) (Okay fine. Maybe I do feel bad for him - really bad - but I’m still pissed at him for treating Jongin like that. I get his whole fear of watching his relationship with Jongin die a slow, painful death. Long-distance relationships can be toxic, but still… WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BE THAT CRUEL ;____; /SOBS)
“You can either say goodbye or not say it - doesn’t change the fact that I won’t be here tomorrow.” Joonmyun’s voice was unbending, reinforced with threads of steel.
/throws stuff at you and Joonmyun
But honestly… the way you described Jongin’s confusion and fear and pain was too damn real! My throat was tightening up and I had to swallow several times throughout that scene alone.
He ached so badly to have Joonmyun’s arms around his thin, shaking body and to feel Joonmyun’s bony shoulder beneath his chin; but the other boy was keeping his distance. T_____T
And of course Jongdae’s solution for Jongin’s heartbreak is a night out partying and drinking. Of course! LMAO xD (Bless him for his matter-of-fact acceptance of Jongin’s sexuality. BLESS HIM!)
"Okay, that's it. I can't watch this pity party. We're taking you to a club on Saturday night. Who knows? You might even bump into Mr. Heartbreaker there."
"Jongdae, please. Life is not a Korean drama,"
In the end he was right, though. Apparently Jongin’s life actually is a drama. I approve. Give me all the wonderfully clichéd storylines. Amazingly written clichés are a beautiful thing and give me life. (And I hope you’re aware of the fact that cliché doesn’t have a negative connotation for me. I love them. They make me ridiculously happy. Meeting your first love again, with both sides still completely in love with each other… /sighs happily)
I actually loved that club scene a lot. And not just because of the short Selu appearance (although I adored that one A LOT.
The music is just an excuse SCREAMING I’M ACTUALLY SCREAMING
I really really REALLY liked the way you handled the ‘meeting again and realizing who the other person is’ scene. You eased them into it (or at least Joonmyun), it wasn’t one staggering realization, but it still had so much impact. I was really impressed by that.
"Y'know, I wasn't going to say anything but ... you remind me of this kid I once knew."
I was actually holding my breath. GENIUS!
Then there’s the tentative, but also natural way the fall back into their conversations with each other. You could see they were both being careful with their words, unsure of how much they could/should reveal, afraid they might say too much or the wrong thing, but there was also this ease between them… it’s so hard to describe, but you made me feel it and it left my chest all achey and heavy with both worry and hope. THIS STORY WAS SUCH AN EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER BUT IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE UGH
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"Ah, y'know, I got by."
This pretty much killed me. There are so many unsaid things in that little exchange alone. Jongin’s need to know what happened to Joonmyun, to hear why he had left him like that, if he suffered as much as he did. On the one hand he wants him to be happy, but on the other hand there had to be a part of him wishing that Joonmyun was as miserable as him, missing Jongin and cursing himself for leaving him like he did.
Then there’s Joonmyun, who did what he thought he had to do to protect himself and his heart, but nevertheless hurting himself in the process.
I JUST… ACK! I’M SO NOT OKAY! DAMMIT!
My favorite part of his story was probably the flashback to their first kiss. Everything about that scene was just so tense and lovely and bittersweet (because we all knew what happened after that), but you actually made me feel the electricity in the air. Not just the description of the storm, but the awareness and tension between them. Joonmyun’s struggle of keeping things platonic when he wanted so much more. Needed so much more! >____<
I have such a weakness for friendship on the edge of something else, something more, and you wrote that so phenomenally I’m still breathless. That was just such a powerful and amazing scene and… I can’t. (You have no idea how much I am questioning my own writing right now. I’m not usually the type to compare my own work to other people’s stories, but right now I’m… /stares at own stuff and shakes head sadly)
Jongin's arm reached around Joonmyun's shoulders as they waited for the hammer to strike. It felt good. The weight on his shoulders felt like it belonged and Joonmyun had to restrain himself from slipping his arm around Jongin's waist.
Just kill me now.
He turned towards him and all that smooth tawny skin and curved bottom lip was suddenly too close - so close that Joonmyun couldn't breathe. The wind ripped at Jongin's hair, making a few strands fall messily across his forehead; and he wanted nothing more than to push that hair aside and kiss him on the forehead.
I will never recover.
That scene of Sukai talking things through (or not talking - /sighs lovely smut was lovely) was so emotional, but at the same time it felt as if things were already settled? I’m having problems finding the right words again, but it felt as if things fell into place the second they saw each other again. Both of them obviously still wanted each other so much, their love was just as strong as seven years ago, so the talking was necessary in a way, but at the same time there was a sense of something (I CAN’T FIND THE DAMN WORD /PULLS HAIR) to it. Like they both knew they would be with each other again and it was just a matter of getting there. Omg, I sound like an idiot, but that’s the feeling you gave me and I can’t describe it any better. I’m sorry.
Also that last flashback of Joonmyun /cries all over you ;_________;
That epilogue had me flailing like an idiot. It was so lovely and emotional and wonderful! Just like this entire story and I have to admit I was actually crying a little bit when both of them sent each other emails again TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE ALL THESE FLUFFY LOVELY SUKAI FEELINGS I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DEAL WITH!!!!
And Joonmyun replying to every single one of Jongin’s mails…
Nope.
Not. Okay.
This will never be okay.
You have ruined me forever. I will never be the same again.
Bye.
And this is it… my very inadequate and dumb comment, but it’s all I could manage and it was heartfelt, so I hope you at least know that I just really loved it. It was simply an incredibly lovely story and I’ll reread it again and again and again in the future.
Oh right! Almost forgot… I also really loved all the side characters: Jongdae, Amber, Tao, (Selu - even though they were extremely SIDEside characters. I’m still hung up on that one scene, sorry not sorry).
I just loved everything about this and I feel exhausted but incredibly happy at the same time (and I have no idea how I’m supposed to leave my room and be sociable now… I don’t care, this was /so/ worth it!)
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And yes, all the selu I ever write is always ever and ever for you <333
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