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i'm starting to think about alot of things like
how i dont like the idea of calling rey my boyfriend
that word seems so generic like husband and wife and all that other shit that ppl call each other.
i dont know how to describe him or how much he helped me or how much i forgot abt alot of other shit and especially just closing that chapter with tony and still be able to remain his friend.
but thats whats starting to confuse me abt rey.now that im okay and i dont really need to get my mind off of anything or...just the fact that he was always there for me as my friend.
reys really the only person im ever going to believe when he says
that he'll never change hes always going to be the same person and that hes ok with that and never go back on their word.its refreshing and i know that i can believe him 100%.
so then how am i gonna tell my friend.or the guy that helped me be happy and not care abt the little things but be really aware of the things that matter.that i dont wanna be with him because i dont feel comfortable.cuz i dont wanna hurt anyone i love this much.
i came across my neighbor today and he asked me if i was still with tony and i told him no but that we're still good friends and all is good.and he says goober.and i laughed and said did you just call me a goober?and he says no i called him that.and he asks me well who are you dating now?and i said no one.he asks why and i shrug and say i dont ike anyone.and he said he didnt blame me.
that being said...i just need to...be alone cuz this point in time theres really nothing that great out there sadly and if there is hes blantently gay.
how i dont like the idea of calling rey my boyfriend
that word seems so generic like husband and wife and all that other shit that ppl call each other.
i dont know how to describe him or how much he helped me or how much i forgot abt alot of other shit and especially just closing that chapter with tony and still be able to remain his friend.
but thats whats starting to confuse me abt rey.now that im okay and i dont really need to get my mind off of anything or...just the fact that he was always there for me as my friend.
reys really the only person im ever going to believe when he says
that he'll never change hes always going to be the same person and that hes ok with that and never go back on their word.its refreshing and i know that i can believe him 100%.
so then how am i gonna tell my friend.or the guy that helped me be happy and not care abt the little things but be really aware of the things that matter.that i dont wanna be with him because i dont feel comfortable.cuz i dont wanna hurt anyone i love this much.
i came across my neighbor today and he asked me if i was still with tony and i told him no but that we're still good friends and all is good.and he says goober.and i laughed and said did you just call me a goober?and he says no i called him that.and he asks me well who are you dating now?and i said no one.he asks why and i shrug and say i dont ike anyone.and he said he didnt blame me.
that being said...i just need to...be alone cuz this point in time theres really nothing that great out there sadly and if there is hes blantently gay.