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my woman
epidemic: It hit me last night of how enormously bad I wanted to be beside Ryan. After an incredible night with him, all I wanted to do was end it perfectly. I wanted to fall asleep in his warm embrace. His blanket of love and care surrounding me. All while my head rested on his chest. I wanted to feel the heart that beat for me everyday. Listening to his gentle rhythmic breathing and the touch of his hand rubbing my arm would have made me fall asleep so soundly and peacefully. I wanted that so bad. More than anything. The feeling of wanting to be held was so intense. That's all a girl ever wants anymore. They want to be held in the arms of someone who cares for them deeply. They wish for it every night to come true. They want to feel infinite. Last night meant a lot to me. It was really something special. I will never forget it... not ever. I didn't want the night to end. Yesterday, before I went to sleep, I got to see his smile, hear his laugh, hear his voice that takes my breathe away. Those three things that Ryan possesses are the key to my happiness, my sanity, my belief that anything is possible, the motivation to never give up. I wanted nothing more than to be held last night. I tried so hard not to shed a tear. His calming whisper telling me that everything is okay made me smile and feel much better. Ryan is my dream come true. He is the wish, the miracle, the dream, that was given to me, and I can't help but feel so thankful. Love for a person can be taken for granted so easily, but when you've gone through Heaven and Hell with a person that you feel like you've known forever, you can't not love that one person with every part of your soul. Along with every inch of your whole entire being. With all of your heart. I never thought I could love someone as much as I love Ryan. I can stare at a sunset, at the midnight sky, at the ceiling of my dark blue room, and cry because I know that I love him that much. Every thought that crosses my mind, every picture I see, has a part of Ryan in it that's invisible to everyone except me. He lives for me like I live for him. We see no flaws in one another. We are the perfect examples of a human being whose gone through so much in their life, and managed to make it out okay. We owe our life and our soul to one another. I will forever thank Ryan for showing me the bright lights in life that I never thought existed. He is my guardian angel, my best friend, my everything. He means the world and more to me. How lucky and privileged I am to have a person in my life that I can't picture living without. I believe that we were both put on this earth to spend the rest of our lives together. We were meant to be together. When he is here, I am filled with joy and such passion, and when he is gone, I miss him with every part of me. When I am at my saddest, he picks me up off my feet and gets me to laugh and smile. When I am sick, he is there to care for me and nurse me back to health. I love Ryan with every bone in my body. I love him more than the sun, the moon, and the stars. I will be who I have always wanted to be, and I will succeed in life knowing that I possess the reality that most people wait their whole lives for. I don't need money, a big house, fast cars, or a great job in order to be happy. I could be poor and live on the streets and feel like the richest person of all time because the one who helps me live through each day will be right by my side. I am the happiest and luckiest girl in the universe. All thanks to the one I can't ever live without. The man I want to spend the rest of my life with. Ryan Scott Reed. I owe my life to you. I will love you forever and always.
epidemic: It hit me last night of how enormously bad I wanted to be beside Ryan. After an incredible night with him, all I wanted to do was end it perfectly. I wanted to fall asleep in his warm embrace. His blanket of love and care surrounding me. All while my head rested on his chest. I wanted to feel the heart that beat for me everyday. Listening to his gentle rhythmic breathing and the touch of his hand rubbing my arm would have made me fall asleep so soundly and peacefully. I wanted that so bad. More than anything. The feeling of wanting to be held was so intense. That's all a girl ever wants anymore. They want to be held in the arms of someone who cares for them deeply. They wish for it every night to come true. They want to feel infinite. Last night meant a lot to me. It was really something special. I will never forget it... not ever. I didn't want the night to end. Yesterday, before I went to sleep, I got to see his smile, hear his laugh, hear his voice that takes my breathe away. Those three things that Ryan possesses are the key to my happiness, my sanity, my belief that anything is possible, the motivation to never give up. I wanted nothing more than to be held last night. I tried so hard not to shed a tear. His calming whisper telling me that everything is okay made me smile and feel much better. Ryan is my dream come true. He is the wish, the miracle, the dream, that was given to me, and I can't help but feel so thankful. Love for a person can be taken for granted so easily, but when you've gone through Heaven and Hell with a person that you feel like you've known forever, you can't not love that one person with every part of your soul. Along with every inch of your whole entire being. With all of your heart. I never thought I could love someone as much as I love Ryan. I can stare at a sunset, at the midnight sky, at the ceiling of my dark blue room, and cry because I know that I love him that much. Every thought that crosses my mind, every picture I see, has a part of Ryan in it that's invisible to everyone except me. He lives for me like I live for him. We see no flaws in one another. We are the perfect examples of a human being whose gone through so much in their life, and managed to make it out okay. We owe our life and our soul to one another. I will forever thank Ryan for showing me the bright lights in life that I never thought existed. He is my guardian angel, my best friend, my everything. He means the world and more to me. How lucky and privileged I am to have a person in my life that I can't picture living without. I believe that we were both put on this earth to spend the rest of our lives together. We were meant to be together. When he is here, I am filled with joy and such passion, and when he is gone, I miss him with every part of me. When I am at my saddest, he picks me up off my feet and gets me to laugh and smile. When I am sick, he is there to care for me and nurse me back to health. I love Ryan with every bone in my body. I love him more than the sun, the moon, and the stars. I will be who I have always wanted to be, and I will succeed in life knowing that I possess the reality that most people wait their whole lives for. I don't need money, a big house, fast cars, or a great job in order to be happy. I could be poor and live on the streets and feel like the richest person of all time because the one who helps me live through each day will be right by my side. I am the happiest and luckiest girl in the universe. All thanks to the one I can't ever live without. The man I want to spend the rest of my life with. Ryan Scott Reed. I owe my life to you. I will love you forever and always.