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[forgottenevil]

I could have had you

I could have taken that heart

As you asked of anyone

Which you put such a low price on

And I could have made it a captive

I could have made you love me

So you would be safe for now

I could have laid you down gently

Where ever you would lay

And I could have made you my princess

In sparkling black

(Stay with what we know)

No more mascara tears

No more eyeliner dreams

I could have bathed you in chrisom

So you wouldn’t have to hurt anymore

We could have become skeletons together

And danced a creaking tune

Of rustic wars

And temptations

Then I could not have

But now I could

I could make you feel ..

We could have straightened together

We could have destroyed together

We could have masked together

We could have laughed a fake together

We could hide together

I could destroy you

I could have looked after you

I could have made sure you never changed

From being tainted just one last time

Fair snow that stretches

To a blinding perpetuity

Rejecting the logics

And the comfortable fit

That’s why you fit so well into me

You could have been mine

I could have owned you

I could have hugged you

I could have never let you go

I could have kissed you

Until you forgot that we lost contact

Until I forgot any other

Until we where how it is described

…just fragments

You could have rejected me

You could have gone away

You could have let me go

You could  have said no

But you didn’t

And nothing happened

Nothing moved and nothing shifted

But nothing ever was

So the seconds flick by

And I stopped paying notice

I should have been paying homage

Instead I paid ignorance

And cruel silence

But you gifted me with forgiveness

I expect rejection

So this new balm stings

Just like the limp that keeps me from you