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Murrr...
so, my mum sat my brother and me down a little while ago.. and decided to finally tell me what the fuck is going on..
It turns out that my sister is broke..like so broke that the only things she had in her fridge are a bottle of water, some bread and ketchup..(Needless to say my mum went out and bought her some food and groceries and other essential things. ) I didn't like hearing this..
I was shocked to say the least. Hell, I was still shocked that she would have tried this. since she had sounded so happy on the phone just the day before. But now it was doubled by the fact that she probably wasn't eating much.
She's in debt, she hasn't been to work in so long that she won't be able to afford her rent, or her hospital bills, or anything else that she needs. Is basically the gist of it..I really don't want to get into it.
So my mother told us that she'd be trying to help my sister out. Which I am all for. Hell, I want to help her out. One of the many reasons that I am getting a job..again. But then my mum tells us that she'll have to go into our college funds to help my older sister. And being as shocked as I was, on't think it really clicked.
I'm conflicted. Because I don't want my sister to be evicted or have anything like that happen to her, because she's family and I'm closer to her and Yuri then anyone else. But the fact that my mother has to take care of her like this is not something that I want to think about.
Hmm..I'm angry..Because I don't think it's fair..to my brother, to me, to my mother, or to my sister. I mean, she's 27, she should be helping herself by now..
Right, my family is sort of weird..if I go to college, I'll be the first in my imediate family to go. Yukie didn't 'cause she got pregnant and dropped out. though she did get her GED. and she's got her realitors lisence. Yuri didn't because my mum was in debt and couldn't afford it. And so going to college is a big thing for me. I want to go, and yet it seems as if Fate doesn't like that idea. And that makes me angry...Because it sounds selfish I know, and I don't like it, but I want ot be the first to do something... I don't like that part of me..but I sort of feel like I get lost in the shuffle. Yukie was the first born. She was special just because she's the oldest. But she was also the best student, and such. Her wall in her room from middle/highschool was covered in academic achievement awards and such. Yuri was the first to graduate from highschool. She's also the party-er of the bunch. Roki is the first boy, he's the baby of the family, he's the most athletic. He's the tallest, he's special, because my mom always wanted a boy.
And me..I'm just me..I haven't really done anything special. I've never really done anything. Id on't really do anything. I need to feel special sometimes.. I think I've got some sort of inferiority complex or something..
Anyways..I don't like that she's going to be going into our college money. I don't like it at all. But I want to help Yukie. So I figure I can join the airforce and try to get through it...The only problem is that I'll probably end up trying to deck the drill sergant..And that won't be a good thing.
Right..I've got to check on the children so I'm going to go..
so, my mum sat my brother and me down a little while ago.. and decided to finally tell me what the fuck is going on..
It turns out that my sister is broke..like so broke that the only things she had in her fridge are a bottle of water, some bread and ketchup..(Needless to say my mum went out and bought her some food and groceries and other essential things. ) I didn't like hearing this..
I was shocked to say the least. Hell, I was still shocked that she would have tried this. since she had sounded so happy on the phone just the day before. But now it was doubled by the fact that she probably wasn't eating much.
She's in debt, she hasn't been to work in so long that she won't be able to afford her rent, or her hospital bills, or anything else that she needs. Is basically the gist of it..I really don't want to get into it.
So my mother told us that she'd be trying to help my sister out. Which I am all for. Hell, I want to help her out. One of the many reasons that I am getting a job..again. But then my mum tells us that she'll have to go into our college funds to help my older sister. And being as shocked as I was, on't think it really clicked.
I'm conflicted. Because I don't want my sister to be evicted or have anything like that happen to her, because she's family and I'm closer to her and Yuri then anyone else. But the fact that my mother has to take care of her like this is not something that I want to think about.
Hmm..I'm angry..Because I don't think it's fair..to my brother, to me, to my mother, or to my sister. I mean, she's 27, she should be helping herself by now..
Right, my family is sort of weird..if I go to college, I'll be the first in my imediate family to go. Yukie didn't 'cause she got pregnant and dropped out. though she did get her GED. and she's got her realitors lisence. Yuri didn't because my mum was in debt and couldn't afford it. And so going to college is a big thing for me. I want to go, and yet it seems as if Fate doesn't like that idea. And that makes me angry...Because it sounds selfish I know, and I don't like it, but I want ot be the first to do something... I don't like that part of me..but I sort of feel like I get lost in the shuffle. Yukie was the first born. She was special just because she's the oldest. But she was also the best student, and such. Her wall in her room from middle/highschool was covered in academic achievement awards and such. Yuri was the first to graduate from highschool. She's also the party-er of the bunch. Roki is the first boy, he's the baby of the family, he's the most athletic. He's the tallest, he's special, because my mom always wanted a boy.
And me..I'm just me..I haven't really done anything special. I've never really done anything. Id on't really do anything. I need to feel special sometimes.. I think I've got some sort of inferiority complex or something..
Anyways..I don't like that she's going to be going into our college money. I don't like it at all. But I want to help Yukie. So I figure I can join the airforce and try to get through it...The only problem is that I'll probably end up trying to deck the drill sergant..And that won't be a good thing.
Right..I've got to check on the children so I'm going to go..