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So my mind is in 1000 different places right now!
My love life, or lack there of
So, i talked to adam yesterday, while over at kelseys. He wasnt fired for what i said it was. He got fired for something else but i cant remember why! He's in California for some odd reason, all of a sudden I asked him what he was doing that day and he said "Im in Cali" and i said "wait wait wait, your where?" We talked for a bit longer and we hung up.
I want to hang out with him so bad, ya'll have no idea, i figured the next time i see him and were not at water world, and out with friends. Im going to hit on him so bad. I dont care, im going to be forward and see what happens, im willing to take a chance of complete embarrasment and shame just to try and get with him! Is that what really really liking someones all about?
On wednesday i was at flatirons mall with nick ben and sammy, and we were walking by a cell phone stand and this guy maybe 21, 22, i think around that age AT LEAST 21, says "hey let me see yourcell" i said " I dont have one" and so i start walking away and hes like " Ill buy one for you" i said " the phone the bill everything?!" and he says "Yup" so i walk over there to see how far this guy was going to take it and he asks "So how old are you?" i just smiled and said "oh im 17" and the life and hope in his eyes just died and went away! It was like he was a kid getting a toy taken away he looked upset and dissapointed. and we went along our merry way
Friends:
I saw kelsey yesterday and i missed her so God damn much, u guys would love her if u met her! You dont understand, she great. I went to her house and we chilled for 4-5 hours.
I've been over at sammys alot, its so the point where im her new summer friend, you know how every summer theres a friend that practically lives there? like last summer it was julie? this summer its me! its kinda weird, but i like it, We are supposed to do something tomorrow just cuz!
There are a few ppl i miss, like alex (talked to him a few days ago) rose julie and a couple a others!
it seems like there are some friends that dont understand a damn thing going on with, me Granted hey got alota fucked up shit goin on with them but its like....they feel like their better than me cuz they've done something i havent!
Im kinda upset cuz it seems like me and jess are drifting so far apart, and now with our jobs it sucks cuz we always hung out and now we hag out just not as much! but what do you expect.
I realize im freaking out about my friends more, ever since jess said shed rather go to northglenn with jenna and nikko than to thornton with me. She already explained that shes always wanted to go there but still.
And when sammy said liz was her best friend still and i thought, DAMN im being beaten by a chick that out of state all the way across the country THAT SHE MET ONLINE?!?! what kinda friend am i? but she explained and i understand i guess.
Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight