Jul 08, 2004 01:28
I'm so fucking sick of my problems. I've tryed to make them go away, and I work so hard, but... they won't. I hate typing them, and I hate even more talking to people. Everything is just so... repetitive. I feel like I'm in the same place I was ten years ago. And I hate how a memory can haunt you. Why can't I Just put 9 years behind me? What happened happened, and theres nothing I can do about any of it. Theres not one damn thing I can do. It doesn't amtter how many times I go to therapy, or how many pills they make me take, memories, and feeling just don't disappear.
And when the only person who acted like they ever gave two shits goes away and forgets you, theres nothing left to do but sit and stare at what they wrote, and leave a mark.