I'm bleeding by myself, but I'm okay.
I am so distressed! I have too much on my plate right now. I cannot handle it. She is leaving in 2 days. I will be in T.C. I will be alone here while she is alone there. This fucking sucks. Regionals are on Sat. and I can't compete. That upsets me so much!
I feel as thought I must be peppy all the time to you. I know you know I can't, but it is as though you expect me too. That will never happen. I need time away from everything in my life! I need spring break. This is more than "spring fever". I am just overwhelmed with things, things I don't even need to worry about. I feel like life is flying by and without realizing it I will have missed things that i would have liked to have done. It's like I have to make all of my future decisions now! I hate it. I don't know how to enjoy life anymore. la di freakin' da. I feel sick to my stomach.
I feel as thought I must be peppy all the time to you. I know you know I can't, but it is as though you expect me too. That will never happen. I need time away from everything in my life! I need spring break. This is more than "spring fever". I am just overwhelmed with things, things I don't even need to worry about. I feel like life is flying by and without realizing it I will have missed things that i would have liked to have done. It's like I have to make all of my future decisions now! I hate it. I don't know how to enjoy life anymore. la di freakin' da. I feel sick to my stomach.