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so i am talkin to this kid online...someone i talk to every once in a while lol...and ive realized i hate everyone with a penis right now....
so what do you think it means when you cant eat cause you feel nausous(spelling ?) all the time...and you cant sleep cause out of nowhere u think of something stupid that you shouldnt even care about and it wakes you up and u cant fall back asleep because you are mad at yourself because you dont even know y it woke you up cause u dont frackin care lol....i dont want to be sad...i want to be happy...i dont want to keep making up excuses to stay in my house because i just dont feel like being around anyone cause im down about myself....and just really dont feel that entertaining....i was doing sooo good since saturday and today i had to be dumb..get nosy...and read something i shouldnt have even been to...and it made me REALLY sad....i shouldnt care and i dont know y i do...but i do....i mean i dont want to be back with this person anyways...but it just makes me re-think alot of the stuff that was said to me...and that leads me to think wayyyy too much about things and makes me think horrible things that probably arent true its just in my head...so whatever...i am strong and ill be ok...i dont want to mess anything up i just dont know y it bothers me...i think its just cause im ending my period...and bein all emotional and dumb...
anyways...tomorrow lunch with ash and rick...then accounting and business law tests 1...i really hope i pass....i hope i pass my economics test...i really just kinda guessed lol oops....i need massive Angela, Chrissy and DD time....and maybe even like last sunday me and ash, rick, nicole, kayla and everyone can go bowling again..if its buck nite lol...that was fun...i think rick is my new favorite person lol...i enjoy his company/talks way too much lol...im glad me and him are friends..and no one better take that the wrong way....i need to hang with my tiffy too...maybe she will want to go to hustler or something...out for a drive or to go see a movie who knows...and i miss ben lol...i have to call him sometime...oh and i miss bill dixon and Terry...lol but ok...i think my point was made lol...but anyways..im off to bed...hopefully i dont get up before my alarm goes off..
Love and Goodnight
so what do you think it means when you cant eat cause you feel nausous(spelling ?) all the time...and you cant sleep cause out of nowhere u think of something stupid that you shouldnt even care about and it wakes you up and u cant fall back asleep because you are mad at yourself because you dont even know y it woke you up cause u dont frackin care lol....i dont want to be sad...i want to be happy...i dont want to keep making up excuses to stay in my house because i just dont feel like being around anyone cause im down about myself....and just really dont feel that entertaining....i was doing sooo good since saturday and today i had to be dumb..get nosy...and read something i shouldnt have even been to...and it made me REALLY sad....i shouldnt care and i dont know y i do...but i do....i mean i dont want to be back with this person anyways...but it just makes me re-think alot of the stuff that was said to me...and that leads me to think wayyyy too much about things and makes me think horrible things that probably arent true its just in my head...so whatever...i am strong and ill be ok...i dont want to mess anything up i just dont know y it bothers me...i think its just cause im ending my period...and bein all emotional and dumb...
anyways...tomorrow lunch with ash and rick...then accounting and business law tests 1...i really hope i pass....i hope i pass my economics test...i really just kinda guessed lol oops....i need massive Angela, Chrissy and DD time....and maybe even like last sunday me and ash, rick, nicole, kayla and everyone can go bowling again..if its buck nite lol...that was fun...i think rick is my new favorite person lol...i enjoy his company/talks way too much lol...im glad me and him are friends..and no one better take that the wrong way....i need to hang with my tiffy too...maybe she will want to go to hustler or something...out for a drive or to go see a movie who knows...and i miss ben lol...i have to call him sometime...oh and i miss bill dixon and Terry...lol but ok...i think my point was made lol...but anyways..im off to bed...hopefully i dont get up before my alarm goes off..
Love and Goodnight