Daily Logs
I've been losing track of things, forgetting things again. Well, not really "again," I guess, but well, stuff has happened and I can't keep track of it. During the day, I can't use my camera. Muraki-sensei would have given me permission to use it, but this new doctor, Kisugi Makiko? I can't trust her.
She's not---
Miku is gone now. She's joined Tamaki and Alfons and Seimei. I never thought she'd leave, but she did; right under my nose. I can't believe I failed her, too, but I guess people can't wait forever. They have to move forward, and maybe she's with her brother now.
Seimei came to see Kio or Soubi or someone. He was brainwashed, like the rest of them, but he called Soubi back. He doesn't remember me anymore and that hurts. A lot. I can't even begin t-
Sheena suggested I started keeping a record of everything I do. I guess that'll be better than just wishing I could use my camera. So, starting from today? I write twice a day - once in the morning to record the night and once in the evening to record the day. Maybe it'll help me keep track of everything.
Since I can't keep memories the way I'm supposed to, I can try to do it in writing. Again. [pen taps] This is weird.
Last night I didn't do anything. I was drugged after my therapy visit and I only woke up halfway through the night. Soubi came to see me though and I panicked him. I wish I could tell him what happened, but I don't want him facing Kisugi without me. If he does, the things she can do...it might destroy him. He won't understand, but this is the only thing I can do to protect him. And I have to protect him. Something's wrong and he won't tell me what it is. He's been biting his nails and he's irritable. The other day he was brainwashed into believing the Institute lies and as this Matsuda Hiro person, he almost hurt me. I know he didn't mean it, and I told him not to worry about it, but I think he's still bothered by it.
I need to take command here. It's weird to say that, but it's true. Like Natsuo and Yohji said: if the sacrifice is weak, the fighter will fail.
I just wish I knew what I was doing.
Notes: I ordered Soubi to stop biting his damn nails, too. He's going to get some disease from that if he keeps it up.
And I can't sign my name like I usually do with him. It bothers him a lot.
She's not---
Miku is gone now. She's joined Tamaki and Alfons and Seimei. I never thought she'd leave, but she did; right under my nose. I can't believe I failed her, too, but I guess people can't wait forever. They have to move forward, and maybe she's with her brother now.
Seimei came to see Kio or Soubi or someone. He was brainwashed, like the rest of them, but he called Soubi back. He doesn't remember me anymore and that hurts. A lot. I can't even begin t-
Sheena suggested I started keeping a record of everything I do. I guess that'll be better than just wishing I could use my camera. So, starting from today? I write twice a day - once in the morning to record the night and once in the evening to record the day. Maybe it'll help me keep track of everything.
Since I can't keep memories the way I'm supposed to, I can try to do it in writing. Again. [pen taps] This is weird.
Last night I didn't do anything. I was drugged after my therapy visit and I only woke up halfway through the night. Soubi came to see me though and I panicked him. I wish I could tell him what happened, but I don't want him facing Kisugi without me. If he does, the things she can do...it might destroy him. He won't understand, but this is the only thing I can do to protect him. And I have to protect him. Something's wrong and he won't tell me what it is. He's been biting his nails and he's irritable. The other day he was brainwashed into believing the Institute lies and as this Matsuda Hiro person, he almost hurt me. I know he didn't mean it, and I told him not to worry about it, but I think he's still bothered by it.
I need to take command here. It's weird to say that, but it's true. Like Natsuo and Yohji said: if the sacrifice is weak, the fighter will fail.
I just wish I knew what I was doing.
Notes: I ordered Soubi to stop biting his damn nails, too. He's going to get some disease from that if he keeps it up.
And I can't sign my name like I usually do with him. It bothers him a lot.