Ughhhhh
I felt sick for most of the day. I still do. I have been fighting with fatigue but mostly the inability to understand, to comprehend. Today was Good, for such atrocious things took place. Do you not understand that I deserve this. The I made incredible mistakes. I left the car unlocked and open, a wallet was sitting in plain sight. A key in the glove box leaves the vehicle far too tempting to pass up. This was my fault. I should have to suffer, I should have to put up with walking to work, public transportation. I am okay with this. I am self-sustaining. I don't need help to survive. Yet there it is, A battle with my inner soul; a war for control. The truth is: I am more sinful and flawed inside myself than I ever dared to believe, and at the very same time I am more loved and accepted in Jesus Christ than I ever dared hope. This is the only kind of relationship that will really transform us.