What do you want to do?
That is what Steve asked me today. My senior seminar professor. In class we are preparing for the professional theatre world. We will be making web presences and resumes and getting headshots and creating portfolios and preparing 5-7 monologues and 2 songs...etc etc etc...
This is all fine and dandy, and very beneficial for my peers, but...for me?
I don't want to be an professional theatre person. I don't want to act for my career. I will do all of these things to fulfill my theme of the year "git r done". I need the class to graduate. Luckily he will be helping us make "working job" resumes and we will take a trip to the smith career center (ha, that place sucks...I've tried to go to them in past years for help but I think I may have frightened them and left them baffled, they have no clue what to do with theatre majors).
So after class I spoke with him. I will make the web presence for the experience of making a website, but I do not want to put it up on the server...he didn't completely understand but agreed that it would be alright and that it was my choice.
When it comes to the monologue prep...that will just be "fun" for me. Not anything career oriented.
However, Im terrified of having to prepare 2 songs. I am not a singer. It will not be fun. I sing in the shower and I sing for God... I don't sing a solo in front of people. Must keep reminding myself: git r done!
So...when I told Steve that I don't want to pursue theatre as a professional career he asked, "Well...what DO you want to do?"
And the answer was uncertain...I told him of things I am considering, of career paths I could take: Peace Corps, AmeriCorps, missions work, preschool teaching at Chesterbrook, maybe an editor for a magazine or newspaper, etc...those things would be bearable.
But what do I want to do?
I want to serve God. How? I don't know. I have faith He will let me know eventually...but for now, the theme for the last year of college "git r done"!
I know what I do NOT want to do...so that helps narrow things...ever so slightly...I do NOT want to:
act in professional theatre
go to grad school
go into any field of medicine
work in a restaurant
be a janitor
be bored
I think that is about it. Those are the definite things I do not want to do.
So, I continue to ponder on the question: what do you want to do?
I want...even though this is something completely not feasible and not a career possibility, none the less it is what I want...to work for Rock Gospel or Strive...one in the same thing. I love volunteering for them, but I wish it could be full time. I wish no one had to worry about money...and they could just travel the nation and the world presenting the Rock Gospel...and there I would be in the background, supporting, working, helping, doing everything I could from behind the scenes. I really do wish Rock Gospel Ministries had gotten the donation/financial support they needed to be a full time ministry...to me it seems so amazing, something that can really speak to my generation...but, alas, God has other plans and I should be content because He must have something far greater going on that I cannot see.
Anyhow, that is what I want.
That...and to someday be a wife and mother.
That is what I want to do.
Now I just need to wait and see what it is that God wants me to do...
For now: git r done.
This is all fine and dandy, and very beneficial for my peers, but...for me?
I don't want to be an professional theatre person. I don't want to act for my career. I will do all of these things to fulfill my theme of the year "git r done". I need the class to graduate. Luckily he will be helping us make "working job" resumes and we will take a trip to the smith career center (ha, that place sucks...I've tried to go to them in past years for help but I think I may have frightened them and left them baffled, they have no clue what to do with theatre majors).
So after class I spoke with him. I will make the web presence for the experience of making a website, but I do not want to put it up on the server...he didn't completely understand but agreed that it would be alright and that it was my choice.
When it comes to the monologue prep...that will just be "fun" for me. Not anything career oriented.
However, Im terrified of having to prepare 2 songs. I am not a singer. It will not be fun. I sing in the shower and I sing for God... I don't sing a solo in front of people. Must keep reminding myself: git r done!
So...when I told Steve that I don't want to pursue theatre as a professional career he asked, "Well...what DO you want to do?"
And the answer was uncertain...I told him of things I am considering, of career paths I could take: Peace Corps, AmeriCorps, missions work, preschool teaching at Chesterbrook, maybe an editor for a magazine or newspaper, etc...those things would be bearable.
But what do I want to do?
I want to serve God. How? I don't know. I have faith He will let me know eventually...but for now, the theme for the last year of college "git r done"!
I know what I do NOT want to do...so that helps narrow things...ever so slightly...I do NOT want to:
act in professional theatre
go to grad school
go into any field of medicine
work in a restaurant
be a janitor
be bored
I think that is about it. Those are the definite things I do not want to do.
So, I continue to ponder on the question: what do you want to do?
I want...even though this is something completely not feasible and not a career possibility, none the less it is what I want...to work for Rock Gospel or Strive...one in the same thing. I love volunteering for them, but I wish it could be full time. I wish no one had to worry about money...and they could just travel the nation and the world presenting the Rock Gospel...and there I would be in the background, supporting, working, helping, doing everything I could from behind the scenes. I really do wish Rock Gospel Ministries had gotten the donation/financial support they needed to be a full time ministry...to me it seems so amazing, something that can really speak to my generation...but, alas, God has other plans and I should be content because He must have something far greater going on that I cannot see.
Anyhow, that is what I want.
That...and to someday be a wife and mother.
That is what I want to do.
Now I just need to wait and see what it is that God wants me to do...
For now: git r done.