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My stomach problems are back. I'm sick. And trying not to complain to my mother. She has a nasty cold, is getting frantic about the quick little trip to boston, is overwhelmed with work, and has zero time for me. So just take milk of magnesia and turn everything to mush for awhile and see if I don't stop pouring out large amounts of blood. I feel so weak and I'm not even close my normal level of energy when I'm in a bad depressive episode (which I am). I have no energy. I don't know how I keep going each day. And my stomach hurts so badly...as does my back. My back has hurt ever since around my brother's wedding. That was when it started to hurt. And the pain has been there ever since. And doctors tell me nothing is wrong with it, but from the level of pain I'm in, I KNOW something is wrong. I've known for ages. People don't end up in horrible pain like this for no reason...and my pain mangement doctor won't give me a pain killer.
I have to go lie down.
I have to go lie down.