I am in a weird mood
Things that smell good
1.Roses
2.coffee beans
3.the smell of earth right after it rains
4.old spice after shave
5.bed head hair wax
6.lily of the valley
7.swimming pools
8.garnier hair products
9.peaches
10.Pine Needles
Any how , we went and got ice cream and then we went for a drive 8-) We saw 4 deer and some wild turkies !! I guess my turkey call sucks because I was gobbling at them and they ran off into the woods :-p LMAO I love being a dork . Then we drove over to my Gramma's house to see some pictures that they got of the hurricane damage at Waters Edge . It's so sad :-( Hopefully the insurance will cover everything but that it not very likely .
I think tomarrow I will ride my bike down to the beach and take some paper with me to write . I have been in a writting mood but have had no inspiration for a few days . Last night we all went down to Main Street Beach and I remembered throwing all my poetry in the water there . I KNOW it is gone but I still looked in the rocks to see if it washed up there . I feel so stupid for doing that . I did it to let go , but it's making me hold on to everything . I can't keep him out of my mind , he always comes back . Even if I try to think of other people , it just never ever works ! Not ONE day goes by with out some type of thought . Now-a-days it's all sadness . I miss seeing him and talking to him ... I miss having REAL conversations with him . It just seems like he was the only one who really understood me and knew where I was coming from . I know I need to let go and move on but I can't . I keep thinking I did something horrible to him to make him go away . I wish things had been different between me and him , or me and EVERYONE . In case you're wondering , this isn't about Ryan . Ryan never caused me to write poetry .......
I miss you ;-(
1.Roses
2.coffee beans
3.the smell of earth right after it rains
4.old spice after shave
5.bed head hair wax
6.lily of the valley
7.swimming pools
8.garnier hair products
9.peaches
10.Pine Needles
Any how , we went and got ice cream and then we went for a drive 8-) We saw 4 deer and some wild turkies !! I guess my turkey call sucks because I was gobbling at them and they ran off into the woods :-p LMAO I love being a dork . Then we drove over to my Gramma's house to see some pictures that they got of the hurricane damage at Waters Edge . It's so sad :-( Hopefully the insurance will cover everything but that it not very likely .
I think tomarrow I will ride my bike down to the beach and take some paper with me to write . I have been in a writting mood but have had no inspiration for a few days . Last night we all went down to Main Street Beach and I remembered throwing all my poetry in the water there . I KNOW it is gone but I still looked in the rocks to see if it washed up there . I feel so stupid for doing that . I did it to let go , but it's making me hold on to everything . I can't keep him out of my mind , he always comes back . Even if I try to think of other people , it just never ever works ! Not ONE day goes by with out some type of thought . Now-a-days it's all sadness . I miss seeing him and talking to him ... I miss having REAL conversations with him . It just seems like he was the only one who really understood me and knew where I was coming from . I know I need to let go and move on but I can't . I keep thinking I did something horrible to him to make him go away . I wish things had been different between me and him , or me and EVERYONE . In case you're wondering , this isn't about Ryan . Ryan never caused me to write poetry .......
I miss you ;-(