note to self i miss you terribly, this is what we call a tragedy....

[forgetme_notxx]

maybe if i keep my self occupied it will all go away. i shopped away my feelings and then ate them away and now i feel fat and sic and sad that i baught pointless stuff that i probably wont wear. i didnt get that much sleep and now i have to go to work all day. i wish sabs was here but shes gone untill thursday to montreal... i want to go back to toronto and stay with my mom again. i feel right now that im not worth anything except for lies and its probably the worste feeling ever but i think its all my fault for being so judgemental to him and no wonder he never told me he was probably scared that i would flip out on him as usual iguess it was un preventable, right now i want to smoke a thousand cigaretts and throw up everywhere and get cancer like my mom because thats just how i feel but if i ever touched a cigarette in my life id probably be so ashamed that i would just kill myself another way.
me and dave broke up over whats killing my mom and he promised. dear cigaretts, youve ruined my life.