this is sucky.life is sucky.
the folowing is a list of things that are sucky:
1.new semester classes are sucky
2.still not finding a job is sucky
3.all my marks from last semester are sucky
4.nathalie being gone is sucky
5.the most suckyest of all award goes to my lovely insecurities and how theyre sky high!!!!
i cant deal with it at all.... it is actually running my life. i hold back on certain things now because of it. i want them to go away. im never going to get used to them even tho theyve been around for aslong as i can remember they just get worse. i can barely sleep unless before i go to bed i stare at myself in my bathroom lighting and pick out everylittle thing wrong with me over and over for like 2 hours. when i get home from school and while im at school or pretty much anywhere i tell myself and think about how everyone else is more perfect than me and better than me and probably nicer than me. i actually think i hate myself. sorry mom.
1.new semester classes are sucky
2.still not finding a job is sucky
3.all my marks from last semester are sucky
4.nathalie being gone is sucky
5.the most suckyest of all award goes to my lovely insecurities and how theyre sky high!!!!
i cant deal with it at all.... it is actually running my life. i hold back on certain things now because of it. i want them to go away. im never going to get used to them even tho theyve been around for aslong as i can remember they just get worse. i can barely sleep unless before i go to bed i stare at myself in my bathroom lighting and pick out everylittle thing wrong with me over and over for like 2 hours. when i get home from school and while im at school or pretty much anywhere i tell myself and think about how everyone else is more perfect than me and better than me and probably nicer than me. i actually think i hate myself. sorry mom.