Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner.
Tonight I saw 13 going on 30. Next week I will be turning 14. I'm sitting here, thinking if only everything was simpler. In the movie, everything seemed so much simpler in 1987, when she was just 13. I kinda wish as if I could go back, not to 13 because then it would've been only a year ago, but when I was younger. I was reading my friend Shelly's live journal entry and it only consisted of her saying "rembember when I used to watch these?" and then she listed all of the old school Nickelodean shows. Does anybody else out there in livejournal land remeber Salute Your Shorts, The Adventures of Pete and Pete, Clarissa Explains it All and more? Remember the big yellow couch and the first episodes of SNICK? Damnit, why can't life be as simple as the video games that Clarissa used to make to solver her problems? I only wish that I could go back to a time where my only main concern was if I would be able to watch Leo Dicaprio week on Growing Pains, when I used to eat my meals at 6 PM every night and not 11 when I finish my homework. When I didn't have to worry about grades and projects and quizzes and tests and all the shit that it entails. When I didn't have a FREAKING SOCIAL LIFE and when I wasn't so damn horny (haha, we all are.)When I didn't have to worry about my weight and if I'm going to pass math and when the latest concerts are and how to get my parents to let me go to them. FUCK, why can't I go back to the past?! Why can't every thing be SO DAMN SIMPLE LIKE IT WAS! There are times when I'm in love with everything. My age, my friends, everything that being 14 entails. Then there are the times when I really want to hurt myself and just curl up in a bed and leave everything.
It's normal ... right?
It's normal ... right?