All the friends that you leave behind...: forgethetime

forgethetime

All the friends that you leave behind...

Oct 21, 2010 21:56

♫ Have you ever stood at the edge of a cliff
and looked down watching the cars rolling by
wishing that there was no pain, wanting for it to be over
have you ever felt like every right you did was wrong ♫

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♫ I can see myself fallen - breaking apart
Oh I can feel myself fallen - fallen apart ♫
Hi the world :)

I'm back from my hiatus with only animated icons :D (Yeah it's been a long time since my last X files animated icons...) So well not a lot coz it takes time but it's always something. About what's happening:

So my lovely journal I need to talk to you in private ;)

* Well I'm supposed to have a school break next week but today the company where I usually work (during the vacations) called me and they need me so no vacations again. Yeah I can't split on money after all...
So that's mean back to pression and I'll have few exams after the break. Knowing that I kinda failed at my math exam... I seriously have to get up or college will be over for me :s

* Besides that people are really nice there, it's the first year where I get on with everyone :) Even if It's kinda weird coz I'm not used to be appreciated... I don't know if it's my new look or the fact I just don't give a shit to everything and to everybody but... the thing is that I've never been so surrounded and I've never felt so lonely...

Which leads to... I don't know what is happening again. I mean I've the feeling since the last week that I'm going to loose the people I care the most if I let some other come in my life. You know like if life wanted a deal between new and old... so I'm kinda forcing myself to be apart.
I'm not asking to people to understand what's going on with me, why I'm so fucked up sometimes, why I can smile and be completely hostile in 2 seconds, why do I care when I don't want to... Yeah so right now I'm fighting, smiling and I'm angry against myself.

Anyway, it doesn't matter 'cause whatever I'm gonna do or even if I choose to stay away from the thing which are the most important, I'll screw up and I'll fail. I just don't know what to do or what to think anymore... Am I good enough?

I know I'm rambling again for something which isn't important but as I said:
I'm not asking to people to understand as I just can't myself.

[ - I'll fight for every breath until there's
nothing left of us - ]

[07] The L word - Shane
[16] The X files - Season 7
[10] Lady Gaga - Bad romance

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