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so..i haven't been on here in a while...well i read weekly..but never right...so..i think that i shall use this as a venting source...because i just can't vent on myspace because..well...i just can't..
So, i understand that parents are in controle of your life basically till 18..but...just because they are the parent does that give them the right to treat thier child with no respect...i trie really hard to hold my toung..and i've gotten better at it..but sometimes a kid just snaps...and yes i was wrong in some ways...i probly shouldn't of yelled back after the thousandth time being yelled at....but i'm sick of the double standards....okay shes the parent...but does that mean i don't deserve respect...i've made mistakes...but does that mean that she can throw them in my face anytiime she gets mad at me...she demands my respect but never shows any to me. anytime she says she's sorry it's fallowed by a "but i was feeling emotional" or " but you were still wrong"....i don't know how much i can take of the constent attack...its like she is clawing on every emotional scare i have...and doesn't even care that i'm hurting...it never seems to matter how much it hurts me to bring back every past mistake....i don't know what to do anymore..its like everytime we are in the same room all we do is fight...i try to prevent it by saying i need to leave the room so i can calm down...but that just angers her more..and she doesn't let me go..so it just bottles up until i burst...well..really thats all to vent about at the moment...
So, i understand that parents are in controle of your life basically till 18..but...just because they are the parent does that give them the right to treat thier child with no respect...i trie really hard to hold my toung..and i've gotten better at it..but sometimes a kid just snaps...and yes i was wrong in some ways...i probly shouldn't of yelled back after the thousandth time being yelled at....but i'm sick of the double standards....okay shes the parent...but does that mean i don't deserve respect...i've made mistakes...but does that mean that she can throw them in my face anytiime she gets mad at me...she demands my respect but never shows any to me. anytime she says she's sorry it's fallowed by a "but i was feeling emotional" or " but you were still wrong"....i don't know how much i can take of the constent attack...its like she is clawing on every emotional scare i have...and doesn't even care that i'm hurting...it never seems to matter how much it hurts me to bring back every past mistake....i don't know what to do anymore..its like everytime we are in the same room all we do is fight...i try to prevent it by saying i need to leave the room so i can calm down...but that just angers her more..and she doesn't let me go..so it just bottles up until i burst...well..really thats all to vent about at the moment...