god taylor your so focked up!
Right now im so focking close to killing myself. i hate it i hate taylor i hate this focking world! i just want to take a knife and stab myself over and over with it! and yes taylor i did cut myself! so you ccan focking get over it! theres nothing you can do about it! and stop pretending to fdocking care! if you did you wouldnt do this to me!and o yeah let me tell ya calling once after i hang up on you really shows your trying to reach me you stupid focking bitch! we cant just be friends! i wish we could but we cant not anymore! im tired of putting up with you! ever since i met you all i do is cry and hurt myself! i never used to cut myself and now i do! why because of you! instead of hurting you i hurt myself! and honestly there is no other way for me but dying. i dont wanna live hurting myself becaseu of you but then again i dont wanna live with out you. im so tired of goping through this all the time. and i hate how you listen to me only when you want to. why cant you do anything on your own? if you loved me youd do that but you dont! i hate you so focking much! and i wish i could just kill you! but most of all i wish i could kill myself! i want to disappear but i cant and i hate it! im starting to think i should just tell my mom so she'll understand why ive been the way ive been lately. taylors is also the reason why ive been slacking off so much in school. i failing because i dont do any of my work and thats not good considering the work we have to do is really hard. all i can ever think about is her and i hate that. she doesnt get it even though she says she does. its like since monday ive been insisting that she try and find away to convince her dad to either let me go over of to let her come here. so yesterday i was like ask if you can come today and i said for her not to call me today unless she could. and she calls me and well she didnt even bother asking because supposedly i said to not ask because itll be a now anyways. i was like sure you listen to me when i dont want you to but when i do you dont its like! what the fock is wrong with you! i always say that her parents will say now anyways but she asks this time she doesnt. hello! this is the time when you should really be sucking up but no you cant do anything right!!!!!i focking hate everything about you! my life used to be great but the i met you and you focked it all up!!!!!why did tyou have to do this!? why cant you just put an effort in becuase you trying just isnt getting yuo anywhere!