loneliness in a dreamers state

[forget_this_day]

i had a dream last night that it was my twenty-first birthday. dave was there, janele was there, sara was there, and a few other people were there. basically what happened was that i was at the bar, snookers to be precise, celebrating. drinkin' beers, shootin' pool, you know. anyways, i saw some friends of mine sitting at the bar with their backs to me. they weren't there with me, they were just there. so i went over to see them, and mind you these are people that i really care about, and they all ignored me. they didn't turn around, didn't say a thing, but there were mirrors behind the bar and i could see that they were giggling and making jokes at my expense. at that point i was completely hurt and started a fight with some random kid. i don't remember what happened with that, but all of a sudden i was in this house with dave. aparently he owned it, or was renting, whatever. janele and sara were there too. i was still pissed off about the people that blew me off so i proceeded to get completely pissed drunk. then i woke up.

i think it means that i'm losing touch with important people, and i need to check myself. i think i'll be thinking about it all day.