time to breath
i jsut had a really good weekend with the fam in temecula. i came back today and i already got called into work. boo. i cant even have my day off because im constantly needed to go in. so i went. i dont know how to say no even though i can barely move im so sore and im liek falling asleep im so exhausted. work is really stressing me out. im stock manager, 3 people work for me, im part of management, yet no one takes me seriously and i get walked on. it's really getting to me. im sick of being pushed around. its like i leave for 2 days and i come back to find everything a complete mess. it was a disaster! i wanted to jsut walk out and cry. but whatever, i'll jsut worry about it tomarrow i guess. today though i was putting away a pair of jeans and inside one of the pockets was 6 (count them 6) sensors and 12 tags. yup...so i had to make a report about it. $390.50 in one pocket that was stolen. super. i dont know what to do about anything anymore. im stressing abour school. i register in a couple days and if i get into cosmetology then i cant work the hours im working now, which is 40 a week. if i dont get cosmetology im going to a beauty academy which means i still cant work my 40 hours. but i really love my job and i dont want to have to give up my promotion so fast. i dont want to let ricardo down, all that we've had the past 2 months is let downs. but cosmetology is my passion and my career. not american eagle. *sighs* i jsut dont know what to do. and cory i love him to death. he's my everything. but for some reason, i dont know what, we constantly bicker. i dont get it. we butt heads. i get worried and i am constantly thinking about the future, our future. we have all these plans but i worry if they'll go the way we want. there is jsut so much going on in my head and in my life, i barely have time to breathe...