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i feel as if i have been so antisocial the past week. i ahvent really talked to anyone or gone out like i used to which was like everynight. ive gotten so out of the habit of going out everynight and getting so trashed. i sorta miss hanging out with shell and hte guys, but it seems as if im not part of that anymore. why is it that at least one maybe twice a year i feel as if i dont belong anywhere, like i cant find my place in this clicked out, stuck up world. i dont know where i should be.i have friends. but i never hang out with them. i havnet hung out with shell in so long. shes always with colin.i havent gone out with the guys in so long and i think they forgot about me. no one calls me anymore. i have my friends at work, but it never goes past that. we dont hang out outside work but i wish we would. deanna is out, we cant hang out ever, besides when we have out class but thats it and it hurts me. ive been hanging out with cory the past like 2 weeks straight. we're constantly together but we never go out and i wish we would but we cant. im sick of being cooped up in my house. we're broken up but we dont act like it at all, i wish i knew what we were and what we were doing, cuz im confused...
anyways, ive been working like crazy! last week ALONE i have over 50 hours!! how nuts is that?!? ben left our store as manager and went to the AE at the Block so we got a temp manager, Kellen from the AE in New York. she is awesome! we clicked pretty much instantly. but i feel like the go between with her and stacy because stacy hates Kellen and talks all this shit to me about her and kellen has been nothing but nice to her, i dont get it. but its sucks becase im cool with stacy too. UGH! me and paige ahve been getting closer the past few days but her last day is on saturday and then she starts work at the Gap; she'll only be downstairs cuz shes still in the Westminister mall butstill, we wont work together anymore. hopefully we'll talk after she leaves. and me and kyle have bonded too a little. that kid is awesome!
i jsut need to find my place and i dont know how to do that
anyways, ive been working like crazy! last week ALONE i have over 50 hours!! how nuts is that?!? ben left our store as manager and went to the AE at the Block so we got a temp manager, Kellen from the AE in New York. she is awesome! we clicked pretty much instantly. but i feel like the go between with her and stacy because stacy hates Kellen and talks all this shit to me about her and kellen has been nothing but nice to her, i dont get it. but its sucks becase im cool with stacy too. UGH! me and paige ahve been getting closer the past few days but her last day is on saturday and then she starts work at the Gap; she'll only be downstairs cuz shes still in the Westminister mall butstill, we wont work together anymore. hopefully we'll talk after she leaves. and me and kyle have bonded too a little. that kid is awesome!
i jsut need to find my place and i dont know how to do that