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[forget_me_knot]

i'm so confused
totally stuck in the middle
and i have no idea what i need to do
do i stay where i am or do i try something new?

i'm falling into old habits again
the drinking the drugs the "problem"
its all coming back
i feel as if i am about to have a huge screw up

so many things are happening at once
there's one to many emotions
running through my head

my supposed best friend, freaking out on me
she wont let me help
it seems as if she doesnt want me to be there for her
i dont seem to understand

a new friend is messing with my head
saying 'yes' but then saying 'no'
pick one please!
stop toying with my emotions
why do you have to go and make everthing so complicated?

i think i found my soulmate
you know, that one person you truly connect with?
i found mine, but everything is so...so not right

i really dont know what to do
i'm torn between two
to scared to unleash from my bubble
afraid of what will become
but yet so willing and eager
to get out and try something new
step out from the hole
uncover myself
my heart is saying one thing
while my soul is saying another
who do i follow? which do i believe?
i wish i knew that answer
i jsut want to know what i need to do
the path was long and dark
i never want to go back
so why does it seem like the only road avalible?