i miss my baby...
i haven't updated in so long. I've been really busy lately. I got another job at the buckle in the mall. I honestly love it. I love everyone and i met my new bestest freind jantz spalding there! He's awesome.
the holidays were great. and that is because ben was home. we were together all day on christmas eve,christmas and new years eve. he honestly may be the best thing that has happened to me. yeah we got in out "arguments" but we'd always end up ok before we left each other. and even if i was really mad, i would go to leave and he would run after me. anyways, christmas day was wonderful, i got to spend time with the people i love most... my family, and benny. but i have to say i think new years eve was the best of them all. me and ben went to seghans and hung out w/ anthony,seghan,marshall,montana, and tons of others! me and seghan made fettucini alfredo (which was pretty damn good) and then after hanging out w/ them me and ben went to my sisters house for her party. We had so much fun, we played LCR and danced and just had a blast! I finally had someone to kiss at midnight. but as the night went on and i drank more, ashley started getting sick. i puked in the bedroom and it was pretty nasty. but my LOVING boyfriend cleaned it up and then we went back downstairs for a while. we didn't go to sleep until about 7ish because we layed in ben w/ my sister/brother-in-law, jerry and stephanie. we layed in their bed and drank a whole bottle of champain. haha... then me and ben went into our bed and slept... our room smelled like puke but ben wouldn't leave me so he stayed in there w/ me.
anways, my benny was home for 3 weeks and those werre the best 3 weeks ever. i realized what it's like to love, and be loved. i met knew people, did new things, and found out i suck at bowlling, especially when drunk. we had many nights of just driving around talking, and spending nights in his cabin (freezing) but it was fun. it was the hardest thing taking him to the airport last tuesday and watching him walk away from me. it honestly felt like someone punched me in the chest, i couldn't breathe and i thought someone ripped my heart out. we were together EVERYDAY he was home. we did everything together, whether we slept all day, or went out, or whatever. we were always together. i absolutely hate being apart from him. he is my best friend, and i miss him more and more each day. he won't be back home until june. i'm going to see him w/ his mom and brother in april though.
i got asked to move to chicago w/ mina. i haven't gave her an answer yet. i don't know what i want to do. the other day sam asked me if i wanted to move to virgina w/ her. and that would be wonderful b/c of course bens in virgina but i wouldn't move just to be close to him, i would move to get away. i need to get away from this area. i mean i love my job and my family but i hate it here. I've been here allllll my life. and i'm ready for a change, i'm ready to start over.
the holidays were great. and that is because ben was home. we were together all day on christmas eve,christmas and new years eve. he honestly may be the best thing that has happened to me. yeah we got in out "arguments" but we'd always end up ok before we left each other. and even if i was really mad, i would go to leave and he would run after me. anyways, christmas day was wonderful, i got to spend time with the people i love most... my family, and benny. but i have to say i think new years eve was the best of them all. me and ben went to seghans and hung out w/ anthony,seghan,marshall,montana, and tons of others! me and seghan made fettucini alfredo (which was pretty damn good) and then after hanging out w/ them me and ben went to my sisters house for her party. We had so much fun, we played LCR and danced and just had a blast! I finally had someone to kiss at midnight. but as the night went on and i drank more, ashley started getting sick. i puked in the bedroom and it was pretty nasty. but my LOVING boyfriend cleaned it up and then we went back downstairs for a while. we didn't go to sleep until about 7ish because we layed in ben w/ my sister/brother-in-law, jerry and stephanie. we layed in their bed and drank a whole bottle of champain. haha... then me and ben went into our bed and slept... our room smelled like puke but ben wouldn't leave me so he stayed in there w/ me.
anways, my benny was home for 3 weeks and those werre the best 3 weeks ever. i realized what it's like to love, and be loved. i met knew people, did new things, and found out i suck at bowlling, especially when drunk. we had many nights of just driving around talking, and spending nights in his cabin (freezing) but it was fun. it was the hardest thing taking him to the airport last tuesday and watching him walk away from me. it honestly felt like someone punched me in the chest, i couldn't breathe and i thought someone ripped my heart out. we were together EVERYDAY he was home. we did everything together, whether we slept all day, or went out, or whatever. we were always together. i absolutely hate being apart from him. he is my best friend, and i miss him more and more each day. he won't be back home until june. i'm going to see him w/ his mom and brother in april though.
i got asked to move to chicago w/ mina. i haven't gave her an answer yet. i don't know what i want to do. the other day sam asked me if i wanted to move to virgina w/ her. and that would be wonderful b/c of course bens in virgina but i wouldn't move just to be close to him, i would move to get away. i need to get away from this area. i mean i love my job and my family but i hate it here. I've been here allllll my life. and i'm ready for a change, i'm ready to start over.