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I've been having a really really bad summer so far. I just want to fucking burry myself in a hole. Today and yesterday were the worst days ever. I don't think I've ever cried this much before. I fucking hate my family. I hate everyone. I don't feel like myself anymore. Happy gay people at church wonder how someone could just kill themself. Well when you're this low on life I can understand why. My life sucks so bad right now. My friends aren't helping much either. My aunt doesn't want me to hang out with Ryan because she thinks he's a bad influence. FUCK HER I'LL FUCKING FUCK HIM IN HER FUCKING BED. She can't tell me what to do she's not my mom. I'm such a fucking loser. I'm not even a cool loser.