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when i took on this job working at a detox clinic, i didnt think it would be this hard.
its more emotionally and mentally hard than anything else. These people on drugs just kill me, i mean they tell me their whole life story as they come in. most of the time when they come in they're either high of something or just completely wasted, they act so strong, like they can detox in a second. they tell me how "this is the last time you'll see me here cause im never going back to drugs" and as the week goes by, i watch them go down hill, cry, scream, swear, get so sick that they cant get off their bed. When they come to our clinic, they are allowed up to 5 days(depending on what they're detoxing for) 5 days tho, its not even enough time to get addicted to drugs, let alone detox from them. if they're eligable( depending on insurance) they can go upstairs, which is a longer program. Some of these people dont have anything, insurance wont cover it, so they go back on the streets do more drugs and when 3 weeks is up they come back and try detoxing again. this past week, has torn me up inside. a grown man, crying into my hands, asking for comfort. i couldnt handle it. Its only been 5 days working there ive seen so many people come in and out of the clinic. Ive seen them break down and just leave and go back to their drugs. But there are those few who are determined, who want to recover.
the first few days of work, i was exhausted. more emotionally then physically. i didnt even go out until yesterday. Im not sure what this experience is going to bring me, but im learning alot from the people that i meet.
its more emotionally and mentally hard than anything else. These people on drugs just kill me, i mean they tell me their whole life story as they come in. most of the time when they come in they're either high of something or just completely wasted, they act so strong, like they can detox in a second. they tell me how "this is the last time you'll see me here cause im never going back to drugs" and as the week goes by, i watch them go down hill, cry, scream, swear, get so sick that they cant get off their bed. When they come to our clinic, they are allowed up to 5 days(depending on what they're detoxing for) 5 days tho, its not even enough time to get addicted to drugs, let alone detox from them. if they're eligable( depending on insurance) they can go upstairs, which is a longer program. Some of these people dont have anything, insurance wont cover it, so they go back on the streets do more drugs and when 3 weeks is up they come back and try detoxing again. this past week, has torn me up inside. a grown man, crying into my hands, asking for comfort. i couldnt handle it. Its only been 5 days working there ive seen so many people come in and out of the clinic. Ive seen them break down and just leave and go back to their drugs. But there are those few who are determined, who want to recover.
the first few days of work, i was exhausted. more emotionally then physically. i didnt even go out until yesterday. Im not sure what this experience is going to bring me, but im learning alot from the people that i meet.