Dear Journal, today I finally got off my ass
Today I started the dreaded MOVING process. I have almost all of my personal pocessions packed and ready to go. I threw away almost all of my furniture and/or gave it away to people who need it now more than I do. Now, if my dumb ass had saved everything and just had a yard sale, I'd probably be coming back to Florida with a tight little wad of cash, but since I'm a dumbass, and I believe in the whole KARMA deal...I'm coming home broke. Basically, what I'm saying here is: ALL YOU RICH ASS PIMPS...take down my number! haha, no-not really. I just really need to get back and get a job, and everything will be fine.
As for the "boyfriend" situation, I can't say my perspective is brighter on this end of the spectrum. I've decided that my heart and mental state are far more important than Joshua's wants or needs, and so this is why I will be going back home a single woman. No boyfriends. No drama. I really just don't want any of it. Also, I might add- that I've learned a value lesson throughout all of this: first of all, if another male ever attempts to put his hands on me again in my lifetime, I am totally going to WIG out and cut his ball sack off. No, seriously. That's just fucking petty. No male should ever expect a chick to NOT fight back when being touched inappropriately or maliciously. That shit shouldn't be tolerated, ever. Well, except when the girl is a SMUT-then sometimes she deserves a nice bitch slap to check her ass in line, but in all honesty, a guy should never LIKE to beat the fuck out of their girl. SECOND of all, In ANY relationship I encounter EVER again, I want to know I am the center of attention. Now to most people, this might sound a bit conceited. But in all reality, out of all of my relationships, I was always second best. The only thing Angela is good for is a piece of ass and a drug buddy. No thank you. THIS girl has feelings. THIS girl can love. THIS girl deserves so much better than you!
SO...I guess it's time to think about the future. At this point I want a guy who is successful but fun, sarcastic and witty. Artistic, CUTE, and all around a blast to be around 24.7. Let's face it, when you have the right person in your life you can do almost anything together...Yeah, really...that's what I want. I want someone who puts in 50 percent, while I work my ass off to put in the other 50. I want a best friend, a lover, I want it all. DOES IT EVEN EXIST? IS there EVER going to be a perfect guy out there for me?
I'm beginning to wonder. Really, it's confusing for me sometimes-because I don't get how I can expect someone to accept me 100 percent, when I can't even except myself. How can I expect someone to love me, when I don't neccisarily love myself? I WISH IT WERE POSSIBLE-
Someone out there might be sitting there reading this post, that knows me on a whole other level. If you are that person, and you think you might be interested (and you're located in the FLORIDA area) **And uh, it'd be REALLY cool if your name was _ _ _ _ .......♥ ♥
hit me up bitches!
As for the "boyfriend" situation, I can't say my perspective is brighter on this end of the spectrum. I've decided that my heart and mental state are far more important than Joshua's wants or needs, and so this is why I will be going back home a single woman. No boyfriends. No drama. I really just don't want any of it. Also, I might add- that I've learned a value lesson throughout all of this: first of all, if another male ever attempts to put his hands on me again in my lifetime, I am totally going to WIG out and cut his ball sack off. No, seriously. That's just fucking petty. No male should ever expect a chick to NOT fight back when being touched inappropriately or maliciously. That shit shouldn't be tolerated, ever. Well, except when the girl is a SMUT-then sometimes she deserves a nice bitch slap to check her ass in line, but in all honesty, a guy should never LIKE to beat the fuck out of their girl. SECOND of all, In ANY relationship I encounter EVER again, I want to know I am the center of attention. Now to most people, this might sound a bit conceited. But in all reality, out of all of my relationships, I was always second best. The only thing Angela is good for is a piece of ass and a drug buddy. No thank you. THIS girl has feelings. THIS girl can love. THIS girl deserves so much better than you!
SO...I guess it's time to think about the future. At this point I want a guy who is successful but fun, sarcastic and witty. Artistic, CUTE, and all around a blast to be around 24.7. Let's face it, when you have the right person in your life you can do almost anything together...Yeah, really...that's what I want. I want someone who puts in 50 percent, while I work my ass off to put in the other 50. I want a best friend, a lover, I want it all. DOES IT EVEN EXIST? IS there EVER going to be a perfect guy out there for me?
I'm beginning to wonder. Really, it's confusing for me sometimes-because I don't get how I can expect someone to accept me 100 percent, when I can't even except myself. How can I expect someone to love me, when I don't neccisarily love myself? I WISH IT WERE POSSIBLE-
Someone out there might be sitting there reading this post, that knows me on a whole other level. If you are that person, and you think you might be interested (and you're located in the FLORIDA area) **And uh, it'd be REALLY cool if your name was _ _ _ _ .......♥ ♥
hit me up bitches!