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so really, life is all about remembering to breathe i've learned.
i've realized that when i'm stressed out, pissed off at the world, etc. all i really need to do is stop thinking about it and breathe.
saturday was good for me. i cleaned my car from top to bottom. then i did the same to my bedroom. then i did all of my laundry. and something i think a lot of people don't know about me is that i am a clean freak, contrary to old habits that people still associate with me more than likely. i like for my room to be clean, i get really fucking frustrated when my car is dirty even though it usually is, i hate wearing dirty clothes or even having them in my bedroom, and all year i was the one to break down and clean the whole house when "NOBODY" had time to do it. and a small bout of mild depression ran my life from thursday to saturday and the fact that i was basically unable to function due to everything being unorganized, dirty, flustered, etc. was only making matters worse. so now everything's spotless, it's in its right place, and i'm totally organized... and this makes me happy. i feel so much less stressed out than i did after the whole robert/post-dated checks debacle from last thursday. plus, i think i forgot to mention that i started my period right after i dealt with all of that. like, i was in tears in my bed with the world's worst cramps ever but they weren't even what i was crying over. so things are on the up and up, i suppose. at the rock gym, i'm creeping up on v5's and they really just don't know i'm even coming for them. but i am.
i've decided i'm buying an ipod on friday. originally, it was going to be a camera but robert cashing that check early has cost me about $100 in overdraft fees and i won't be able to afford it by then. i considered getting my tattoo before chicago (having to be this weekend), but it's going to cost me more than $300 if it's as good as i want it to be. so i'm going to wait (as this whole cluster fuck has been teaching me a valuable lesson in patience, as well). i will, however, have enough money for an ipod on this paycheck. so i'm going to buy one. lord knows i need one... when juli's not there, i'm stuck listening to the lamest kids ever say dumb shit in my ears and i really just want to tune it out. it will also be nice to have for the plane ride.
i don't even know why i type in here anymore.
i've realized that when i'm stressed out, pissed off at the world, etc. all i really need to do is stop thinking about it and breathe.
saturday was good for me. i cleaned my car from top to bottom. then i did the same to my bedroom. then i did all of my laundry. and something i think a lot of people don't know about me is that i am a clean freak, contrary to old habits that people still associate with me more than likely. i like for my room to be clean, i get really fucking frustrated when my car is dirty even though it usually is, i hate wearing dirty clothes or even having them in my bedroom, and all year i was the one to break down and clean the whole house when "NOBODY" had time to do it. and a small bout of mild depression ran my life from thursday to saturday and the fact that i was basically unable to function due to everything being unorganized, dirty, flustered, etc. was only making matters worse. so now everything's spotless, it's in its right place, and i'm totally organized... and this makes me happy. i feel so much less stressed out than i did after the whole robert/post-dated checks debacle from last thursday. plus, i think i forgot to mention that i started my period right after i dealt with all of that. like, i was in tears in my bed with the world's worst cramps ever but they weren't even what i was crying over. so things are on the up and up, i suppose. at the rock gym, i'm creeping up on v5's and they really just don't know i'm even coming for them. but i am.
i've decided i'm buying an ipod on friday. originally, it was going to be a camera but robert cashing that check early has cost me about $100 in overdraft fees and i won't be able to afford it by then. i considered getting my tattoo before chicago (having to be this weekend), but it's going to cost me more than $300 if it's as good as i want it to be. so i'm going to wait (as this whole cluster fuck has been teaching me a valuable lesson in patience, as well). i will, however, have enough money for an ipod on this paycheck. so i'm going to buy one. lord knows i need one... when juli's not there, i'm stuck listening to the lamest kids ever say dumb shit in my ears and i really just want to tune it out. it will also be nice to have for the plane ride.
i don't even know why i type in here anymore.