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[Dream ♒ 06] Doubts can be so troubling

Sep 02, 2011 20:59

Effects: Confusion, loneliness, guilt and fear.

Warning: Colorful blood! Also lots of art and tl;dr!

( Even in great denial, guilt can still weigh heavy on the heart. )

i havve some problems, dream post, fml, fuckin feelins, wwhat the fuck does this evven mean

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redcladidealist September 4 2011, 03:09:30 UTC

[Lloyd doesn't understand anything that happened in that dream, but the feelings of confusion, loneliness, guilt, and fear that come with it actually help him right now. Instead of sounding irritated, he just sounds... uncomfortable. It's hard to hate someone when their dream makes you feel like that.

We'll see how long this lasts.]

Eridan... I need to talk to you.

forevveraglub September 4 2011, 03:44:10 UTC

[He's really not in the mood for Lloyd with all these conflicting emotions and feelings and GOD what did all that mean? He... He has a feeling he knows but--fuck.]

... What do you want, Lloyd? [His usual venom isn't there, he just sounds... distant.]

redcladidealist September 4 2011, 12:51:50 UTC

[If Lloyd's voice sounds a little sullen and forced, that's because it is. He feels like he's about to tell an outright lie.]

I just wanted you to know that I don't... hate you.

[It's not a lie. It's not a lie because hate means something different to trolls. He just has to keep telling himself that.]

forevveraglub September 4 2011, 21:48:42 UTC

[He can't help but stare for a second.]

... Yes you do, don't try and lie to me. You yourself said you wanted shit black, despite me hawin a kismesis, don't try and take that shit back when you'we already made it clear what you're after.

[Pshaw! Be true about your feelings Lloyd, jeez! Not to mention, he isn't really in the mood for this.]

redcladidealist September 4 2011, 21:57:22 UTC

[Lloyd grits his teeth. Stick to it, stick to it.]

I made a mistake. [THAT'S COMPLETELY TRUE.] I didn't think you'd think I meant it like that. [ALSO TRUE.] I wouldn't ever want to be your kismesis in the first place!

[Look at how many truths he's telling! How can you not believe this face! He is saying this calmly, he's not angry, he's not glaring, he's doing everything he possibly can to look like he doesn't want to punch Eridan in the face.

...he's kind of failing that last part.

HEY, ERIDAN, LET'S BE FRIENDS!]

forevveraglub September 9 2011, 10:26:58 UTC

[Have some narrowed eyed stares Lloyd as he debates this. Is he really in the mood for this right now? Not really.]

... Maybe you should learn what the fuck you're talkin' about before blatherin' off nonsense and hittin' on me like some fuckin' uncultured jack ass.

[Is this Eridan recognizing Lloyd's plea of OH GOD IM SO NOT INTO YOU LIKE THAT? Maybe. Maybe he just doesn't have it in him to argue right now.]

redcladidealist September 9 2011, 10:33:57 UTC

[Don't take offense, don't take offense.

Arrgh, he hates Eridan's attitude and insults so much sometimes! And Lloyd's never been one to hide his emotions well. Was that a glare just now, Eridan? Is Lloyd clenching his fists angrily? He is having a hard time keeping his words calm and level.]

Who says I'm the one who's an uncultured jerk? Maybe you should learn what humans mean when they feel and say things like that. If you're going to blame me, you have to blame yourself, too.

forevveraglub September 9 2011, 10:38:29 UTC

YOU were the one who said you wanted shit black, NOT me, stupid.

[Have a snarl, Lloyd. ERIDAN DOESN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH YOUR SHIT MAN BACK OFF. He has a lot of feelings and emotions going on right now and he is hardly in the condition for your stupid self righteous bullshit!]

That's no fuckin' fault a mine. You were the one spewin' shit you didn't understand, you were the one who started that duel with me, so don't try and throw the blame on me, human.

redcladidealist September 9 2011, 10:43:32 UTC

I said that because black means something different to me! I didn't know!

[Dammit, it's times like this where he wishes he didn't have a policy of owning up to his mistakes.]

So, yeah. I screwed up. I admit that. Happy now? But you screwed up, too, and that fight has nothing to do with this! I was just protecting Kanaya!

forevveraglub September 9 2011, 10:49:24 UTC

You weren't ewen protectin' her, because I wouldn't harm her you fuckin' idiot. I said all that shit to get you riled and boy did it fuckin' work like a goddamn CHARM. As far as screwin' up, nope I didn't do a damn thing wrong. I knew exactly what I was doin', you were the one leadin' me on. I don't see how you bein' some flirtations little slut is in any way MY fault. But yeah, I am glad you will admit for some a the fault, ewen though it's ALL your fault and you should fuckin' accept it.

[Eridan will never admit he was wrong to you Lloyd. Never.]

redcladidealist September 9 2011, 10:54:13 UTC

You shouldn't joke about things like that! How was I supposed to know you didn't mean it?!

[Yup, Lloyd is on the fast track to failing at keeping his temper in check.]

If you didn't want me to attack you, you shouldn't have said stuff like that in the first place!

[You started this, Eridan. You just admitted it right now!]

forevveraglub September 9 2011, 10:58:29 UTC

Maybe you weren't suppose to know, maybe that was the whole FUCKIN' point a it.

[That's where his anger in all of this is starting to head towards amusement.]

Now who said I didn't want you to?

redcladidealist September 9 2011, 11:02:36 UTC

[Argh, you are not making any sense!]

You wanted me to flirt with you? Then why are you angry at me?!

forevveraglub September 9 2011, 11:15:04 UTC

Because you're comin' to me while I'm obwiously NOT in the fuckin' mood to bitch at me about 'not' hatin' me when you'we been feedin' me all of these pitch fuckin' adwances.

Sure, I prowoked you, but you were the one who kept meetin' ewery damn step I took, you were the one who followed and ewen sometimes tried to take lead in this black waltz that YOU kept aliwe, despite me sayin' I hawe a kismesis.

[He isn't taking blame for it, because he isn't at fault in this. Not in his eyes anyways. He was just gave the offer, Lloyd was the one who was so goddamn reactive to it. Not to mention, Lloyd was the first to admit his feelings of hatred! Even if he had admitted pity as well...]

But if you're still on this blamin' thing, Kar did explain troll romance, not my fault you apparently can't pay attention. Pfft despite what you may say, I'm findin' it actually pretty damn hard to beliewe that this was entirely unintentional. I think you're lyin'.

redcladidealist September 9 2011, 12:19:38 UTC

I pay plenty of attention! I heard everything Karkat said to me, I just didn't get it all. And I was trying to make peace with you, you jerk! I wasn't "bitching" at you! I-

[He bristles. Oh no, you didn't.]

I am not lying! I don't lie! I mean every word I'm saying right now, and I meant ever word I said back then! [He is so furious you don't even.] I hated you and I still hate you but I don't hate you like that!

forevveraglub September 11 2011, 04:46:00 UTC

Hahahah, eweryone lies, don't try and act like you're some goddamn exception! Like you're abowe it--you're not.

[He smirks though, it was pretty amusing how Lloyd was SO willing to just admit when he mentally fell short of understanding.]

There's no makin' peace with me, Lloyd. You'we started these wawes, now you hawe to deal with the tide.

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