Sooo.
School was normal today like always.
Zackary got his braces off this morning, I haven't seen him but i'm sure he looks adorable!
I realized a few things today I guess. I've just realized how mean I really am to some people, as annoying as some of them are I feel like I should feel good about being mean to them, and at the time I really do feel great because everyone laughs too, but then afterwards I just realize what I bitch I really am.
At lunch today I took Ross's chair and I told him that it wasn't his chair and I got it from somewhere else. He called me a bitch and blahblah and I was like "Ross I hate you how about you go fuck off" And I was like wow, I really am a bitch. I don't like it. I'm always in such a bad mood..I cant help it sometimes =/
Also, wonderful Bryan Cheek came up to me today and told me to take this shirt he had and I said no and he said yes and I said no again. Then he was like 'damnit' and i was just like 'get the fuck away' and we both kinda laughed but i didnt really think it seemed like I was joking around about it and I felt bad afterwards. I just realized how mean I am to some people that I love. I'm just in such a bad mood at school that I just really don't feel like talking to anyone because school sucks and I just hate it there. So that's basically why I look sad/mad most of the time, and why I just like don't like to get dressed up to go to school like most people. I just wear sweatshirts and jeans and I feel fine. I sleep in some of my classes for part of the time, and that makes me look very tired.
Okay so basically what i'm trying to get to saying is that i'm very sorry for the way I act at school. If i'm being a bitch to any of you during the day, tell me & i'll apoligize and straighten up, I promise. I guess it just really hit me today, i've kinda been realizing the way i've been acting but not this much until today.
Also, it effects me when I'm at home even AFTER school is over for the day. I come home and I'm just depressed and I just dont feel like doing anything.
I really am sorry to everyone I have been mean to lately, I will straighten up..just please forgive me.
<3 Love you all
Zackary got his braces off this morning, I haven't seen him but i'm sure he looks adorable!
I realized a few things today I guess. I've just realized how mean I really am to some people, as annoying as some of them are I feel like I should feel good about being mean to them, and at the time I really do feel great because everyone laughs too, but then afterwards I just realize what I bitch I really am.
At lunch today I took Ross's chair and I told him that it wasn't his chair and I got it from somewhere else. He called me a bitch and blahblah and I was like "Ross I hate you how about you go fuck off" And I was like wow, I really am a bitch. I don't like it. I'm always in such a bad mood..I cant help it sometimes =/
Also, wonderful Bryan Cheek came up to me today and told me to take this shirt he had and I said no and he said yes and I said no again. Then he was like 'damnit' and i was just like 'get the fuck away' and we both kinda laughed but i didnt really think it seemed like I was joking around about it and I felt bad afterwards. I just realized how mean I am to some people that I love. I'm just in such a bad mood at school that I just really don't feel like talking to anyone because school sucks and I just hate it there. So that's basically why I look sad/mad most of the time, and why I just like don't like to get dressed up to go to school like most people. I just wear sweatshirts and jeans and I feel fine. I sleep in some of my classes for part of the time, and that makes me look very tired.
Okay so basically what i'm trying to get to saying is that i'm very sorry for the way I act at school. If i'm being a bitch to any of you during the day, tell me & i'll apoligize and straighten up, I promise. I guess it just really hit me today, i've kinda been realizing the way i've been acting but not this much until today.
Also, it effects me when I'm at home even AFTER school is over for the day. I come home and I'm just depressed and I just dont feel like doing anything.
I really am sorry to everyone I have been mean to lately, I will straighten up..just please forgive me.
<3 Love you all