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i have a knack for self destruction you know that? no matter what i do, how my life is, if its goood i always manage to make it bad, make it not nice by saying something or doing something i shouldnt and then it all falls to peices because i couldnt keep my big mouth shut... im a masochist (sp*), i enjoy pain i guess. of course this all goes to the idea of boyfriends, and how ive managed to ruin every good thing thats ever gone my way, whether it be because of something i did to someone, something i said to someone, or just plain being me.. what do i do that makes me want to push people away, and then bring them back when i know ive pushed too far....? its great simply great. life is just way to complicated for me...