Puppy

[foreversmiles05]

So tonight I was at Jess's apt. for awhile, from about 7pm-11:45pm or so. It was nice talking to the girls again. Mikey brought us Taco Bell cuz he's such a nice guy like that, I <3 him. Kyle got home around 10:45pm so we all just sat around and talked for awhile. Nicole left, and then Mike and I left right after that. Right when I got home my mom said my puppy got out the front door and went running down the street...yeah we've been looking for him for over 2 hours now, we took treats, and his toys and flashlights out there, went driving, can't find him :( I seriously cannot stop crying, I cannot sleep w/out my puppy, especially knowing he's so little and he's going to be outside in the cold all by himself all night, I just hope he doesn't get hit by a car, I hope someone picks him up, ugh...life is pure SHIT! I thought by the way things were going today, life was going to start looking up, but i've realized that God just plain frickin hates me 2 pieces, I give up, I don't even know anymore. He's not going to have food/water AHHHHHHHHHHH I just can't stand this shit anymore, I can't even stop crying. I don't want him 2 get hit by a car...i'm done, done done done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've given up ALLL hope for anything GOOD in my life, I can honestly say...I wish I was dead right about now, I mean that with everything inside of me, this has got to be one of the worst feelings in the entire world. Anyway, i'm going to sit on the couch and watch t.v. all night because I can't possibly sleeping feeling as bad as I do that he's outside alone in the cold and i'm inside my nice warm house. C-ya...~Nikole~
Dear God, while you're out making my life a living nightmare, just kill me off, please...??? Thanx! Sincerely, Nikole Catherine! :(