The old me...
I really would do anything to look like this again:
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How did I get so far off track? How did I get back to this size again?
I've never felt so unattractive in my life. I really don't find myself the least bit pretty or attractive anymore. My body is just what houses my soul and my brain. It is functional.
It gets in the way of me feeling sexy with my husband. (Not that he cares what size I am...the bigger the better in his opinion...he's sort of a freak that way).
I can't wait to quit my job and start getting back on track and getting healthy. I can't wait to work towards the old me. I want to be Size 12/14 again. I really do. I just felt good in that size...I'd even settle for 16/18 misses. But I'm not happy with how I look or feel now. I don't like how out of shape I am. I used to be strong...fit...ugh.
Then my inner feminist starts telling myself to not buy into our weight obsessed culture...but I did feel better and I was more fit back then.
The large quantities of legalized speed didn't hurt either (stackers)...which I still have a ton of but can't take because I'm a therapist and can't be jittery or my patient's will pick up on that right quick.
Sigh...I feel old.
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How did I get so far off track? How did I get back to this size again?
I've never felt so unattractive in my life. I really don't find myself the least bit pretty or attractive anymore. My body is just what houses my soul and my brain. It is functional.
It gets in the way of me feeling sexy with my husband. (Not that he cares what size I am...the bigger the better in his opinion...he's sort of a freak that way).
I can't wait to quit my job and start getting back on track and getting healthy. I can't wait to work towards the old me. I want to be Size 12/14 again. I really do. I just felt good in that size...I'd even settle for 16/18 misses. But I'm not happy with how I look or feel now. I don't like how out of shape I am. I used to be strong...fit...ugh.
Then my inner feminist starts telling myself to not buy into our weight obsessed culture...but I did feel better and I was more fit back then.
The large quantities of legalized speed didn't hurt either (stackers)...which I still have a ton of but can't take because I'm a therapist and can't be jittery or my patient's will pick up on that right quick.
Sigh...I feel old.