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Jun 04, 2007 18:28

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you responded. now i say my piece directly to you. foreverpiper June 6 2007, 12:54:47 UTC
Funny. You can think I was the bitch all you want.

But it was me telling you not to let people step all over you. I told you over and over. You just never listened. Of course, after your friends told you you listend to them non stop. Just don't forget who was there for you month after month when you didn't think you had any fucking friends. Even when we WEREN'T together.

You picked your friends over me. I did everything for you. I hope you feel just a little fucking guilty you fucking prick.

I was there for you. You weren't there for me. End of fucking story. It was ME you fell to everytime something bad happened. It was ME you cried to when things were going shitty. It was ME you called when your parents did something to you. But the second you got all your friends back you dropped me so quick it was ridiculous.

You were always first to me. I left Tara's or Andrew's at the drop of the hat if you called and said you needed to see me or some shit like that. But the ONE time I fucking did that to you, the ONE time I needed you, you were 'with your friends'. So fuck you. After all your fucking 'Oh I'll always be there for you'. 'Oh I'll be there if you need me! If you don't think that then you obviously don't know me very well.'

Well you're right about that. I don't know you well at all anymore. Haven't for months. You're a different person then the girl I fell in love with so long ago.

Ya know, its funny that even Dianna would think I was the one always hurting you after we had that talk at the beach that one night. I remember very clearly looking at her and saying "Ya know. This wouldn't be so hard if I didn't love her so damn much." But whatever.

So you can keep thinking I was the one always hurting you, when it was you making me cry myself to sleep almost every night for months.

You can call me a bitch. You can say that I 'pushed you around'. You can call me controlling or anything you fucking want. But it was ME who tried to change for YOU. I stopped complaining when we were together. I tried suppressing my anxiety about everything when I was with you. I made my schedule around you just so I could spend a second with you.

So yeah. Call me controlling and pushy or whatever the fuck you want.

At least I can admit when I was being a fucking prick. This time last year, I was a huge prick. This time it's all on you. And you can't even admit it.

So fuck you. Congrats on turning into everything you never wanted to be.

Don't fucking talk to me again. Don't respond to this. Don't do anything referring to me anymore.

I wish I could say I hated you. Because right now it really fucking feels like it. But I know its anger. Anger because for some reason, I feel like I failed. But one day I'll realize its not fucking me. It wasn't even all you. It was both of us not being compatible or having anything in common.

But I'll never forget when I asked you one night if you really, seriously thought we'd make it till you graduated. You said yes. With no hesitation. Just remember that when you're destroying that track phone.

So I hope you too, have a fantastic summer. And I hope you find someone in life that’s just as selfish, untrustworthy, scatterbrained, obnoxious, and unavailable as you are. In fact, I hope you find someone who is exactly like you are. See how you fucking like it feeling like your always on the backburner.

And by the way, shit head. You might want to change your lj profile. I don't think you should be very fond of ties anymore.

My sincerest wishes,
Anna

PS: That chakram necklace sure did burn pretty.

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Re: you responded. now i say my piece directly to you. meangurrl June 7 2007, 00:14:21 UTC
I know that you are pissed about whatever is going on, but I just wanted to remind you that you used to be very nonchalant about anything dealing with your emotions, and the fact that you aren't afraid to stand up and say "fuck you" to someone who is being a bitch shows how much you've grown up since we last spent time together.

I don't know the story, so I can't technically take sides, but you are my friend and she's not so I'll still help you beat her up if you ever need me to.

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