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I've had this journal more then two years now. I've realized in the begining I would usually just write about my day and what was happening. I don't normallly do that know. I write when i have a poem to share, or when Mark is making me mad, or i'm sad for some stupid reason. I never talk about my day anymore. So i've decided to write about my day.
This morning when i ate some cereal real quick before school my dad decided to tell me that i can't go to CT to visit my brother Dan and my friends that live there. I was so angry and he doesn't understand. He says that my mom and him have paid money to go on a sleigh ride. I've been asking them ever since dan went to college and they still haven't let me. and now there reason is a sleigh ride? I honestly don't understand... my dad was like, "well were going to sleep in his room?" I was like are you serious? I was so mad. I don't mind sleeping on the floor of a dorm room. he's my fricken brother, he'd probably let me sleep on his bed. But my parents say no- i don't get it, like they think were going just to get drunk or something. My parents should realize that i've already drank before, but for some reason they are acting navie.. like i'm still in junior high.
The other reason i was mad was because i wanted to visit my friends who i haven't seen since the end of july. I was so excited. I miss them terribly, and love that- and it would of been so much fun. so that pissed me off.
and then there's the whole providence college thing, they give me $13,000 dollars, and that's not enough for my dad. I hate being one of the last kids and my parents realizing we ran out of money. this sucks and i hate it. My brother dan gets to go to $40,000 dollar college where he got a $3,00 scholarship and only $1000 in financial aid- and i can't even consider providence now. Dan got to visit jim when he was a senior in like october, and i have to wait til April. I don't want to in April. I want to now, in april we'll only have a month left. I want to focus on highschool then, and enjoying. Right now i want to get out of syracuse for just a couple days but no, the stupid sleigh ride is getting in my way.
after breakfast dispute, school was okay. in art i was really bored, so i just painted the shading of just one flower all period. in economics i basically read Jess's poems the whole time instead of listening. that was fun. Calc was confusing and ofcourse Judy tells us that we have another test, this thursday. she tests us every week it seems now. i hate ap calc. relgion- my essay was all over, but usally Mr. Horan likes my essays so i'm not scared. The poetry reading thing was nice. i didn't want to read, but i'm kind of regretting it now. i appauld all that did.
Mark drove me home. I vented about my morning most of the time to him. he listens well. Then i asked him what he wanted for valentine's day. he wouldn't tell me. he kept saying "nothing" over and over again. It's really kinda crazy how for the past two years i just wanted him to be my valentine. Now he is. Anyway i really need an idea and i'm dumb and can't think of anything...
i came home and maura went to work. then i got real bored.
This morning when i ate some cereal real quick before school my dad decided to tell me that i can't go to CT to visit my brother Dan and my friends that live there. I was so angry and he doesn't understand. He says that my mom and him have paid money to go on a sleigh ride. I've been asking them ever since dan went to college and they still haven't let me. and now there reason is a sleigh ride? I honestly don't understand... my dad was like, "well were going to sleep in his room?" I was like are you serious? I was so mad. I don't mind sleeping on the floor of a dorm room. he's my fricken brother, he'd probably let me sleep on his bed. But my parents say no- i don't get it, like they think were going just to get drunk or something. My parents should realize that i've already drank before, but for some reason they are acting navie.. like i'm still in junior high.
The other reason i was mad was because i wanted to visit my friends who i haven't seen since the end of july. I was so excited. I miss them terribly, and love that- and it would of been so much fun. so that pissed me off.
and then there's the whole providence college thing, they give me $13,000 dollars, and that's not enough for my dad. I hate being one of the last kids and my parents realizing we ran out of money. this sucks and i hate it. My brother dan gets to go to $40,000 dollar college where he got a $3,00 scholarship and only $1000 in financial aid- and i can't even consider providence now. Dan got to visit jim when he was a senior in like october, and i have to wait til April. I don't want to in April. I want to now, in april we'll only have a month left. I want to focus on highschool then, and enjoying. Right now i want to get out of syracuse for just a couple days but no, the stupid sleigh ride is getting in my way.
after breakfast dispute, school was okay. in art i was really bored, so i just painted the shading of just one flower all period. in economics i basically read Jess's poems the whole time instead of listening. that was fun. Calc was confusing and ofcourse Judy tells us that we have another test, this thursday. she tests us every week it seems now. i hate ap calc. relgion- my essay was all over, but usally Mr. Horan likes my essays so i'm not scared. The poetry reading thing was nice. i didn't want to read, but i'm kind of regretting it now. i appauld all that did.
Mark drove me home. I vented about my morning most of the time to him. he listens well. Then i asked him what he wanted for valentine's day. he wouldn't tell me. he kept saying "nothing" over and over again. It's really kinda crazy how for the past two years i just wanted him to be my valentine. Now he is. Anyway i really need an idea and i'm dumb and can't think of anything...
i came home and maura went to work. then i got real bored.