13 July 2000
It's been the same routine, day after day, week after week. Wake up with the sun, head to St. Mungos, return home. Hasn't changed much since--
Well, since she left her hospital suite, I suppose.
Nothing's changed outwards, but there's got to be something, right? She can't just disappear. That's never been the way she's done things. It's all flash and attention, leaving traces of her touch on everything. Her madness. Everyone says the Ministry's going to keep tabs on her, so no one'd be in any immediate danger. I know that's true, but I can't help but worry. It's a bit of a comfort, the worrying. And there must be wizards high up in the Ministry who are sympathetic to their side. Her release makes no sense otherwise. Loads of things don't make much sense lately, unless you figure in the supremacists' influence. But neither Tonks nor I've found anything conclusive.
I wish this could be over. I thought it was over with her in Azkaban. But now I know it won't ever be over until there's another death. it's horrible thing to say, but that's how it'll end up.
I just hope it won't be me.
The Order meets next week, and I figure this'll be one of the major things to deal with. I said I'd show up. I really ought to, right? Just to make sure they know I'm okay. I can't not go. It wouldn't be proper if I hid from everyone for too long.
At least it'll be good to see everyone again, and at Hogwarts besides. I sort of miss being at the castle. Perhaps I'll have a look at the greenhouses once I'm there.
Well, since she left her hospital suite, I suppose.
Nothing's changed outwards, but there's got to be something, right? She can't just disappear. That's never been the way she's done things. It's all flash and attention, leaving traces of her touch on everything. Her madness. Everyone says the Ministry's going to keep tabs on her, so no one'd be in any immediate danger. I know that's true, but I can't help but worry. It's a bit of a comfort, the worrying. And there must be wizards high up in the Ministry who are sympathetic to their side. Her release makes no sense otherwise. Loads of things don't make much sense lately, unless you figure in the supremacists' influence. But neither Tonks nor I've found anything conclusive.
I wish this could be over. I thought it was over with her in Azkaban. But now I know it won't ever be over until there's another death. it's horrible thing to say, but that's how it'll end up.
I just hope it won't be me.
The Order meets next week, and I figure this'll be one of the major things to deal with. I said I'd show up. I really ought to, right? Just to make sure they know I'm okay. I can't not go. It wouldn't be proper if I hid from everyone for too long.
At least it'll be good to see everyone again, and at Hogwarts besides. I sort of miss being at the castle. Perhaps I'll have a look at the greenhouses once I'm there.