The world's still kinda angry
I'm on my deck, right now, and the world looks fucking crazy. It stormed last night, if no one noticed, like... a lot. I was in the east troy/waukesha area and the lightning looked like the world's flickery basement light. I know. Flickery. Really Danielle? Could we not have come up with something a TAD more creative. BUT, I'm talkin' that basement light in the scary movies, like "Texas Chainsaw Massacre" or something {never seen it. it may be the sweetest basement ever. I really don't know.}.Like, that light flickers and lights up the whole room real fast so you can only see the killer when he's at a distance and then when he's right in your face. No preparation time. It's really not fair. Like THAT light. Anyway, that's what the lightning looked like last night.
The world right now, though, is like... after the storm. Everyone always says that after the storm, it's just calm and collected. Like... the world got over it real fast. A flash temper, that one. Right now, though, it's still kinda windy, and the river is moving at a pace of like 80 miles an hour. The colors stand out in the weirdest way. I think if I could be a painter, light would definitely be my specialty and my obsession. The other day, in the sunset, everything looked foggy, like a painted backdrop. Or sometimes in Ireland, the nighttime with an artificial light made it look like we were all in some 1930s great depression flick, where bobby joe and little suzy grow up together in down home wisconsin and fall in love at 16. Like THAT color, where reds are brighter but also more dim... like bitterly dim, but still sweet at the same time. hmmm... I wish I could describe that kind of color. It's like brightening the darkest color of something. Brightening a deeep brick red... like that color. haha :-D
but this kind of color, this is different. It's like dimming the brightest color. the shadows play on the world just... exactly... to make it dark and foreboding looking, but also having this hopefulness to it. Because it's still bright outside, the contrast was just changed to make it a darker kind of bright. ugh. I wish I could paint. and understand color a lot better. haha... i suppose I could learn.
Anyways, that's what's going on right now. How beautiful it is outside, and how many times I get out here to love it and appreciate it. I don't think I've ever seen such a beautiful summer. I've always loved all the other seasons, but summer just had this... lack luster. I'm starting to see this place in the strangest, but most beautiful way. I think it's cuz I've been feeling like I'm looking at the world through the eyes of a foreigner.
Also, all of this dark, foreboding stuff could just be waiting for another storm. It's not really OVER, it's just crying a little bit and collecting itself before it tries again. That's kind of what I feel like I'm doing right now. Just, in a general sense, this kind of pain or any of my troubles... I know that eventually I'll be okay and I'll stand back up and try again. And I'll fight just as hard. And, in between, it's kind of hopeful. Kind of... humanly beautiful. Like... not this great shining statement, with bright colors and lights illuminating everything like a stage... and it's not dark and scary and sad... It's just, real. Just very real, and seemingly boring... but probably the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
Don't worry, world. You'll get your second chance.
Listen to this soonnnnnng. :-D
The world right now, though, is like... after the storm. Everyone always says that after the storm, it's just calm and collected. Like... the world got over it real fast. A flash temper, that one. Right now, though, it's still kinda windy, and the river is moving at a pace of like 80 miles an hour. The colors stand out in the weirdest way. I think if I could be a painter, light would definitely be my specialty and my obsession. The other day, in the sunset, everything looked foggy, like a painted backdrop. Or sometimes in Ireland, the nighttime with an artificial light made it look like we were all in some 1930s great depression flick, where bobby joe and little suzy grow up together in down home wisconsin and fall in love at 16. Like THAT color, where reds are brighter but also more dim... like bitterly dim, but still sweet at the same time. hmmm... I wish I could describe that kind of color. It's like brightening the darkest color of something. Brightening a deeep brick red... like that color. haha :-D
but this kind of color, this is different. It's like dimming the brightest color. the shadows play on the world just... exactly... to make it dark and foreboding looking, but also having this hopefulness to it. Because it's still bright outside, the contrast was just changed to make it a darker kind of bright. ugh. I wish I could paint. and understand color a lot better. haha... i suppose I could learn.
Anyways, that's what's going on right now. How beautiful it is outside, and how many times I get out here to love it and appreciate it. I don't think I've ever seen such a beautiful summer. I've always loved all the other seasons, but summer just had this... lack luster. I'm starting to see this place in the strangest, but most beautiful way. I think it's cuz I've been feeling like I'm looking at the world through the eyes of a foreigner.
Also, all of this dark, foreboding stuff could just be waiting for another storm. It's not really OVER, it's just crying a little bit and collecting itself before it tries again. That's kind of what I feel like I'm doing right now. Just, in a general sense, this kind of pain or any of my troubles... I know that eventually I'll be okay and I'll stand back up and try again. And I'll fight just as hard. And, in between, it's kind of hopeful. Kind of... humanly beautiful. Like... not this great shining statement, with bright colors and lights illuminating everything like a stage... and it's not dark and scary and sad... It's just, real. Just very real, and seemingly boring... but probably the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
Don't worry, world. You'll get your second chance.
Listen to this soonnnnnng. :-D