the silence is so loud
Yanno, if I have to sit in silence for ONE MORE FUCKING DAY... I'm gonna kill myself. I'll go insane, and I'll jump out of my window or go and drown myself in the lake or cover myself in breadcrumbs and let the ducks eat me. ANYTHING but this fucking SILENCE!!
I hate the quiet. Hate it. Hate it hate it HATE IT!!!!
I can't listen to music. I can't watch things. My TV is broken. I can't bring another in. I am stuck... in this room... listening to the click of my keys and the hum of my computer and I swear to gods I have CRIED! I'm getting so stressed and frustrated I am now in TEARS.
Mayoki's been a godsend though... Her constant chatter and our logs have managed to make me forget sometimes that I'm in a (relatively) quiet room. It's when she goes and it gets quiet again that I get twitchy... Which is the state I'm in right now so will go to bed.
....... where I won't sleep. Why? Because then the silence gets even quieter... and then I start thinking... and then I start crying again. I... am sick of this. Sick of this feeling. Sick of this BLOODY SILENCE!
I hate the quiet. Hate it. Hate it hate it HATE IT!!!!
I can't listen to music. I can't watch things. My TV is broken. I can't bring another in. I am stuck... in this room... listening to the click of my keys and the hum of my computer and I swear to gods I have CRIED! I'm getting so stressed and frustrated I am now in TEARS.
Mayoki's been a godsend though... Her constant chatter and our logs have managed to make me forget sometimes that I'm in a (relatively) quiet room. It's when she goes and it gets quiet again that I get twitchy... Which is the state I'm in right now so will go to bed.
....... where I won't sleep. Why? Because then the silence gets even quieter... and then I start thinking... and then I start crying again. I... am sick of this. Sick of this feeling. Sick of this BLOODY SILENCE!