Sep 02, 2004 01:26
Wow...i haven't written since i got up here in SLC...hehe. These past 2 weeks have been absolutely crazy. Saying goodbye to everyone was just a WEIRD feeling. The day before i left was such an emotional day. I first went to say goodbye to Jessie at the theater, and it was just such a surreal feeling, i wasn't emotional at all. It didn't feel like i was saying bye and that i wasn't gonna see her for a few months. Then i went to Daniel's party and it was just weird...there is no other explanation. My last stop was Bobby's house and by that time i had said goodbye to so many people that reality set in. I was in her kitchen talking to Lise-Ann (bobbys mom) and Sara and Torrie. I hugged Lise-Ann goodbye and she just kept saying that i will do great up in Utah and that i will have so much fun. As soon as she started saying all that i just broke down and just started crying. She was such a second mom to me, because i was over at her house soooo often. Then i hugged Sara and Torrie goodbye and still couldn't stop crying. Then it was time ot say goodbye to Bob, she walked me out to my car and i was a mess. I just realized how much i was going to miss everyone. I drove off and could barley see the road.
I got home and my eyes were still way red from crying and as soon as i entered my house it started up again. As soon as my mom saw me crying she started crying as well. My whole family and i sat down for my last home cooked meal before i left. Throughout all of dinner i couldn't stop crying and it was so emotional. My sister and my dad were the only ones not crying...it was horrible. I just couldn't believe that i was leaving home. I didn't feel old enough or ready at all to live on my own. I couldn't imagine being without my family all the time. They mean so much to me that it was weird i was going to be gone. I wasn't gonna be able to talk to them about the random crap i talk about...instead i would have to call them and i knew it just couldn't be the same. My family was going to be going on without me and i was going to be up in a whole other state. Im still 17 for crying out loud. So dinner was over and i had to continue to pack. The whole time i was crying and couldn't even think straight...finally i exhausted myself out and fell asleep.
I woke up in the morning and said goodbye to andrew and kelsey and boy was that hard. My dad drove my mom and i to the airport and i was completely in tears because i was leaving the Santa Barbara that i love and will miss soooo much. We got on the plane and then i started feeling better. The whole day was devoted to shopping for my dorm room. We found the CUTEST things ever. I am just so excited. My mom and i hung out the next few days just chill and getting things done for my room. I met Kerin (my room mate) and she is awesome. She is friends with Rob Harmon so its way chill. But, i love her and we get along soo well. It is soo nice to have another girl from CA to relate too. My dad came up on Friday and helped me move into my dorm and the whole time my parents were up in Utah i hung out with them. There were all these things going on in the dorms but i always chose to hang with my parents bc i knew i was going to miss them so much. My parents left on Sunday morning and that was the hardest day for me yet. I was just bawling and i couldn't believe i was going to be on my own. It was so emotional for all 3 of us.
We didn't start school till Wednesday so the few days we had left of freedom was such a blast. Kerin and i met 2 girls down the hall from us that are way chill, so we have tons of fun with them. We also went to some frat houses (which are sooo DISGUSTING) and we met a few chill people there. But anyway...we haven't met any guys our age...it is so strange. All the guys that we have been hanging out with have been 23-26 year olds and all return missionaries. All the guys our age are complete dorks, still have braces, and are just WEIRD kids. We went to a few institute (church) activities and i had never seen that many mormans in one area, at one time. But we met some HOT guys there who were super nice and a few of them became our buddies. We just having so much fun with these guys and they are like the nicest guys i have met in a long time. They are so genuine and so random and fun but one problem is we tend to forget that they are freakin 25 bc they act like they are 19, we just have to keep reminding ourselves. Bc while we think we are just having fun with them, they might be looking for “the one” which is a way scary thought and it freaks me out bc there is no way im gonna get married until a LONG time, and when i say long i mean like 6 years, haha.
Coming up here i though t i was going to meet only mormans and that i would be surrounded. But i really have only met a few...it is so strange. Everyone seems to be out of state which is way chill. Everyone in the dorms are like on some athletic scholarship so we are surrounded by knarley athletes..which isn't all bad, but whatever. Oh!! and there are some HOT black guys up here..either playing basketball or football for the U. They are super nice, Kerin and i are trying to meet as many as we can, haha.
But anyway, i am getting no sleep up here...it is just so nonstop. I have been going out overnight and been getting minimal sleep, especially since i have a 7:30 class, 3 days a week. The food up here is just getting disgusting and i am trying so hard to eat healthy so i don't get fat, but it is so hard. Kerin and i help each other out which is such a great help.
Kerin and i are currently looking into where we are going to get our season passes...i am soo excited. And next week we are gonna go in search for my board and i get to buy all new clothes. OH!!! and guess what?? this winter is going to be the most knarley winter utah has had in the past few years...which is going to be great since i cant deal with cold...but whatever, it will be fun!! It just give me an excuse to buy a whole new wardwrobe...haha, love it!
OMG!!! I completely forgot, but i joined an LDS Sorority. haha im a sorority girl...it is pretty funnay. I am also thinking about joining a greek sorority but im still not sure yet. Im def gonna rush just to meet people but im not sure if i actually want to be in one. If i did rush i would be in Delta Gamma bc it is half lds girls and half partiers...which would be pretty chill. Im just not sure if i could be in a sorority...i just cant see myself in one. And on top of it all, it is freaking expensive!!! It is freakin $900 the first semester and then it goes down from there...ouch
Sorry this post is so freakin long, i just kinda went off...most of it prob doesn't make sense...but oh well...
Love to all!!!!!!