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is there room in this community for someone like me? this town is a hippie town full of things i agree with. friendliness and especially pacifism. but in all the woe\rds and themes, where is the true acceptance that i expected. the majority of people that i meet, i'm afraid to tell that i'm a Christian. they scoff of say "why!" sure, they've known Christians that hurt them or were hypocrites, but show me someone who has not been hurtful or hypocritical.
i'm afraid to pursue and re-become active in my faith. what if it changes me and i become too "churchy" for my friends. i'll still be me. i'll still be accepting and loving and hopefully fun. will i lose the ones i love/ the question that haunts me even more: will God ask me to step back from those i love.
this is such a time of searching and growing or me. i have no where to go to try to reaquaint myself with the beliefs i have hiding inside of me. i'm so afraid of being more shunned than i already have been.
i'm afraid to pursue and re-become active in my faith. what if it changes me and i become too "churchy" for my friends. i'll still be me. i'll still be accepting and loving and hopefully fun. will i lose the ones i love/ the question that haunts me even more: will God ask me to step back from those i love.
this is such a time of searching and growing or me. i have no where to go to try to reaquaint myself with the beliefs i have hiding inside of me. i'm so afraid of being more shunned than i already have been.