My Mind's Falling Out

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My mind's falling out
Ever since you left
2 days 16 hours ago
I'm missing you so much
My mind cannot function
My mind refuse to eat
My mind constantly thinking of you
My mind refuse to sleep
In fear it'd dream of you and happiness
Just so the reality could have a chance
To shatter me again
I'm fighting against it
I thought I cannot cry anymore
I've cried all I had, all I could
But a thought of you...
Sends me reeling as if I've been slapped
Then I crumble and cry so hard it hurts physically
My mind's falling out
My body is weak
It rejects the thought of food without a second thought
My legs shake, so drained
I can hardly type, the screen blur
My eyes hurt, it stings with tears
I'm fighting against it
I'm trying to stay alive
But how if I'm dying already?
My mind's falling out
I don't want to think of you anymore
Yet I want to think the world of you
Because you are the world to me
My mind's falling out
I want to let you go to be happy
Yet I want you to be miserable
If it would mean you'd be with me
Forever and for always
My mind's falling out
So selfish of me yet I did the unselfish
I'm fighting against it, the pain
I'm telling myself to live
I'm trying so damned hard
But it's so hard because I can't help it
If my mind's falling out
Anyway