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well, i've just spent the last two months of my life in priest lake, idaho working my ass off as a waitress. the bar/restaurant i worked at was consisitently understaffed, and we were all overworked. i will never be able to explain to anyone what this summer was like for me. it wasn't like i went to some foreign place and started understanding all sorts of things. it was just that i left for two months, to a place of virtually no stress besides my job, and worked with the coolest and most amazing people in the world.
i came back to chaos, and people who speak too loud.
i spent this last weekend in whistler with some of my best friends from high school and i couldn't figure out why everyone was yelling the entire time. i know sounds crazy.
anyways, i leave for the lake again on friday because i'm working saturday, and i'll go to school on monday. i'm living in a 1/2 of a duplex with april, jordan and this guy named aaron, i've met him once or twice but he worked with april so it should be fun.
i'm not really ready to go back, i've had too little of a turnaround.
but i'm ready to get back into a schedule. i haven't seen anyone, and it seems like the people i haven't seen don't understand why i'm not putting an effort forth to see them, when i figure it's pointless because they're not putting forth an effort to see me. i miss lots of people i haven't, yet i'm sick of trying so hard.
i'm going to go back to bozeman to i don't even know what, i left with a boyfriend that i spent virtually every moment with and we broke up. we're not going to get back together, he's not right for me, not matter how right he thinks i am for him. i'm sick of watching my friends have rediculously stupid relationships that they think they are happy in. i can think of two of my extremely close girlfriends right now that should break up with they're annoying bf's. (mandie i'm not thinking of you)
i feel like i missed so much this summer but at the same time nothing at all. everything repeats itself.
i came back to chaos, and people who speak too loud.
i spent this last weekend in whistler with some of my best friends from high school and i couldn't figure out why everyone was yelling the entire time. i know sounds crazy.
anyways, i leave for the lake again on friday because i'm working saturday, and i'll go to school on monday. i'm living in a 1/2 of a duplex with april, jordan and this guy named aaron, i've met him once or twice but he worked with april so it should be fun.
i'm not really ready to go back, i've had too little of a turnaround.
but i'm ready to get back into a schedule. i haven't seen anyone, and it seems like the people i haven't seen don't understand why i'm not putting an effort forth to see them, when i figure it's pointless because they're not putting forth an effort to see me. i miss lots of people i haven't, yet i'm sick of trying so hard.
i'm going to go back to bozeman to i don't even know what, i left with a boyfriend that i spent virtually every moment with and we broke up. we're not going to get back together, he's not right for me, not matter how right he thinks i am for him. i'm sick of watching my friends have rediculously stupid relationships that they think they are happy in. i can think of two of my extremely close girlfriends right now that should break up with they're annoying bf's. (mandie i'm not thinking of you)
i feel like i missed so much this summer but at the same time nothing at all. everything repeats itself.