She's My Shadow: Chapter 4
I stood there speechless. The love of my life, the only reason I had to live, committed a murder. I stared at her, eyes wide and in disbelief. She stood there, head down, staring at her own hands.
"Sky.." I whispered, unable to approach her.
"I.. I.. didn't" she started to stammer. "I didn't mean to.. go that, far.." She fell to her knees and let out sobs.
I watched her, my legs slowly found my way next to her. "Sweetie, its okay. I'm sorry" I didn't know what I was apologizing to her for, but it felt like it was all my fault. Her sadness, Jane's murder, it all came back to me. I lifted her chin to meet my eyes and planted a kiss on her lips. "You know that I love you, no matter what" and I meant every word of it.
I was horrified at what she did. I can't deny that fact. But she did it in her insecurities towards me. I shouldn't have gone that far with Jane. It was my fault. All my fault. How could I do this to Sky? She's in pain because of me, and I hated myself for it.
Something came into my mind though, after that kiss. How was I able to kiss her? Whenever I tried to touch her, my hands slipped right through her. How was it that I was able to touch her? I looked at her in wonder.
"Sky, how.. am I able to touch you? kiss you?" I kissed her again, in case I had imagined it. My lips met hers. I pushed an entry in her mouth and she responded. As our tongues danced, I place my hands on her hips, pulling her closer. I pulled away from the kiss and looked back at her. "How?"
"I.." her eyes wandered around the room, desperate to look anywhere but at me. "Just.. happened?" Her excuses were terrible. Her lying skills were terrible. But there must be a reason to why she won't tell me. I respected her and was willing to give her her space. I slowly picked up my clothes that were scattered around the room and looked back at Sky.
I smiled down at her, "I won't ask any more questions. You'll tell me when the time is right. I'll enjoy it while it lasts," I whispered giving her a slight peck on the cheek.
She smiled at me, she seems to have forgotten why she was sad. But I had another problem facing me right now. How was I going to cover this up? How was I going to explain what happened to Jane?
"Shit," I said outloud. I began to try to dress Jane, someone could walk in and seeing her nude and dead and that wouldn't help me at all. The damn door didn't have a lock.
"What's wrong babe?" Sky asked me, eyes full of worry.
I looked over at Jane and sighed. "How am I going to explain it?" I asked her.
A sly grin made its way to her face. "You know I can just take her body" she said.
"What?" I asked, shocked at the idea of it.
"Her soul's gone. To heaven to hell I don't really care. But the main point is, her body is still there. I can just slip right in," she said seductively. "Imagine it Yoochun. We can make love every day," she smiled and started kissing my neck.
"Sky.. I dont know about that.." I said nervously. "I.. it won't wouldn't.." I stumbled trying to find the right words to explain how horrible and wrong this idea was.
"Why not? Don't you want me?" She asked, leaning her body into me.
"Babe, you know I do. But, it wouldn't be right. It'd be fooling her family and friends, and I wouldn't me kissing you, I'd be kissing her." I answered. My mouth moved releasing words that in no way explained how I really felt.
How could Sky even suggest this? She murdered someone, and then wants to take their body? Does she not see how wrong that is? Jane's parents will never know what happened to their daughter. Jane's friends will think they're best friend is still with them. I would be covering up the death of a student. Jane would be forgotten, the real Jane will no longer exist. Sky taking her body wouldn't change that. The real Sky would never have suggested that. She would feel horrible at what she did and put all her effort into making amends. Why was she acting like this?
I looked at her, "it's wrong sweetie, don't do it".
"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU YOOCHUN?!" she yelled at me shoving me away. "I can be with you again! Isn't that what you want?! Why won't you let me do this?! LOOK!" she said as she stepped closer to Jane's unmoving body.
"What are you doing?!" I yelled, in fear of what Sky had in mind.
She smirked and stepped into Jane. Jane's body began repairing itself. Her blood wound disappeared, her neck closed up, her eyes opened. What was happening?!
"See Yoochun? Easy as that," Jane looked up at me.
"Sk.. Sky..?" I asked.
Jane smiled. "Easy as that," she said again.
"No.. No Sky!" Get out of her! NOW!
Jane pouted, "and if I don't? What will you do Yoochun?"
"I.. I'll .. for God's sake Sky, GET OUT!" I yelled at her. I honestly didn't know what I'd do. This was wrong. I just couldn't allow it. But what could I do? Tell someone? Reject Sky? I couldn't make myself do any of it. And who would believe me? Not even my friends.
"No," She said.
I was about to yell and force this bitch to get the fuck out of Jane, but someone opened the door.
I turned and found myself looking into Junsu's eyes.
"Junsu.." I said.
"I.. wanted to talk to you about what happened before. Um.. after you.." he began to say but I ran over to him and placed my hands over his mouth.
I whispered in his ear, "Don't say what we did. Not now," If Sky found out Junsu could be in danger, and that was THE last thing I wanted.
He looked at me, eyes full of fear. He nodded slightly and I released my hand from his face with a sigh of relief. His eyes found their way to Jane.
"Oh hi, I think I saw you at school a couple of times. I'm Junsu," he said. Wow, he could really get into character. Junsu smiled and held out his hand towards Jane.
She smiled and took his hand and shook it. "Yeah, I've seen you too. You're new right? I'm Jane," she greeted.
I stood there awkwardly. "So Junsu, could you excuse us for a second?" I asked.
"Sure!" he said in his usual perky voice and started to walk out the door.
"No Junsu, why don't we all just go out together? Being in this room is so boring," Jane said.
What was she doing? That little clever.. BITCH. How could Sky do this? She knew what I was going to say and was trying to find her way out. How could she..
"Oh okay!" Junsu responded. They began to walk out the door when I grabbed Jane's wrist.
I looked at her, my eyes full on anger and nearly growled at her, "We need to talk."
"Yoochun, ow! that hurts!" she squealed. I had not even squeezed her wrist. Her eyes looked as if they would be flowing tears at any minute.
"Yoochun, what do you think you're doing?!" Junsu yelled, "Let her go!" Her grabbed her wrist and yanked it out of my hand. "Were you really this kind of person?" he said to me. Then he turned to Jane and said, "Common Jane, let's put some ice on that."
He was too busy looking at me to notice the look that Jane had just given him. One that made me sure that he had just fallen into her trap.
"Junsu dont!" I yelled in fear of what Sky had in mind. I placed my hand on his shoulder, trying to get him to stay with me. He couldn't be in danger. I won't allow it.
"Let go!" he yelled back and walked out of the room with his arm around Jane.
"UGHHH!" I screamed and punched the wall. Jaejoong was going to get mad at me for denting his wall. I let my body slide down against the wall until I was sitting on the ground. I failed. I failed at protecting Sky. I failed at saving Jane. I failed at protecting Junsu and getting him to like me. I failed. Just failed.
"What the-" came a voice at the door. I looked up and saw Jaejoong. "HEY! Did you do this to my wall!?" he yelled pointing at the dent I had made a few seconds earlier.
I didn't respond and stared forward, my eyes not seeing anything.
"Yoochun, Yoochun!" he said shaking me trying to get my attention.
I shoved him away. "I.." I tried to explain.
"What's wrong?!" Jaejoong asked, his voice full of worry and completely forgetting about his wall.
I looked into his eyes, having no idea what to do now. "I failed," I responded.
"What? At what? Why are you like this?" he asked, trying to get me to open up and tell him something.
I let out a harsh laugh. I couldn't tell him anything. He'd tell me I was crazy. "You wouldn't understand," I said.
"Try me," he said, "You've been there for me through everything. It's time I repaid you. Tell me. I won't judge you or anything, just be there for you and give you all the help I can." His eyes were sincere and truthful.
I looked at them for a minute, contiplating whether or not I should tell him the whole story. With Sky, Jane, Junsu.. Would it be for the best to have someone else know? No. It wouldn't. Sky would get angered, and I can't lose Jaejoong.
"Nothing," I told him, "I'll tell you some other time." I wouldn't.
He looked at me with worry. "You will tell me," he said. He knew not to push me when I refused. He knew me that well.
"Promise," I said. That one word filled with so many lies and hope. I had no one now. I was all alone. I'll just have to accept that fact.
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Sky's POV
"Thank you so much Junsu," I whispered as he placed a pack of ice on my not bruised wrist.
"No problem Jane," he smiled at me, "I didn't know Yoochun was that kind of person."
I pretended to wince as he held the ice pack to my wrist. "I didn't either, I've known him forever." I looked down, pretending to cry.
"Tell me what happened Jane," he lifted my chin, "Why was he so harsh to you?"
This Junsu kid was a really sweet guy. But I had already seen his thoughts. Him and Yoochun had kissed. That bastard. Did he honestly think he could hide that from me? How could he do that to me? He knew how much I loved him. I loved him so much that I would die for him. Again. But he didn't see that. Instead he goes and sleeps with this Jane bitch and kisses Junsu. I was going to make them both pay.
"He.." I whimpered, "He made me.." I burst into tears. Acting really paid of his highschool.
Junsu held onto me, pulling me into a hug. "I'm sorry for asking Jane.. I'm sorry," he said to me.
"No, I'm glad you did. I have to tell someone," I said my voice uneven as I "tried" to stop crying.
"Tell me," he said gently.
"He.. he.. raped me," I whispered. "He made me give him a blow job, and.." I pretended like I couldn't say anything more. I burst into tears again, holding Junsu tight.
"WHAT?!" he said in shock. "I'm gonna kill him," he muttered under his breath.
He turned me so that I could see his eyes, "I'll make sure he does nothing like that again," he said to me. His eyes were full of determination. How chivalrous. I was really starting to like this whole role playing game. I could have some real fun with this.
I looked at him and gave a small smile, "thank you so much." I said. He smiled and kissed my forehead.
"No problem," he said.
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A/N: WHOA! I honestly began this chapter not knowing where it'd go, but I'm liking it! haha, I like the plot twist and I'm going to have more Sky's POV and stuff. This will be fun!! Hopefully it will be for you guys too! Tell me your thoughts and everything by commenting! And if you hate Sky right now, THAT'S GREAT. haha, I'm sorry for what I did to yoochun and junsu.. T_T I love them though, and the plot needed this lol.
Sorry for the long wait for updates. I can guarantee that I will put one up every week though, either on friday or saterday(; maybe a double post on sunday? <3 thank you for your support and keep reading pleeeez! :D